Every thought I have

Has a negative thought or experience to go with it. Trying just makes it worse. Indeed there are many unresolved issues especially with my daughter. There are some very strong negatives involving my husband. We are trying hard but my mind keeps stopping me. I think it must be discouragement. Things are not the way I would want them to be. I would want a friendly easy going relationship with my daughter but she just keeps on fussing if I get near her. She has a lot of anger and it isn't all me. I think I am just a safer target because she knows I will not be unkind or yell at her. I don't cut her off either. I try to be reasonably loyal but I am protective enough that I am careful about my contacts with her. Sad and lonely situation! My husband tries but can be hurtful. Now, it is me hurting me through negative , painful thinking. I have moments of feeling better when I am deeply creatively involved.

Ah yes, things are not the way I want them to be either, so many feels for that statement.

I wish my relationships were better too. I work to do my part, but it doesn't stop the negative feelings. I have a tendency to get stuck mind loops. Fighting that takes very deliberate action on my part, sometimes I can bust it easy and sometimes it takes days.

About a year ago, I let someone new/old into my life. That helped me a lot. Grounded me. Filled some gaps.

Keep being creative!

Maybe let your daughter come to you.