I'd do much better without emotions !

Are emotions and feelings the same thing ? My emotions, ( or feelings ) about certain things are ruining my life. I'm beginning to question everything I thought to be true. I do my best to show that I care in many different ways. Yet I don get back what I need. And that is just some love and affection. My SO can not seem to show or give me this PHYSICAL love and affection. She doesn't feel she needs to. There are many reasons why she is this way. But the fact remains that I don't believe her. Why do people lie so much ? Why is there so much fakery going on.
What happens is that all this rejection makes me doubt myself. My self esteem.
My sanity! Am I completely wrong about everything ? Should I just keep my mouth shut and play along ? I can't ! I can't keep deflecting how I feel. Why would I want to be with someone who can't show love physically. There is so much more to this and I tend to give her the benefit of the doubt. But I know there is someone out there who can give me what I need. And it's nothing weird or extravagant. It's just plain old love and affection. Is that too much to ask ? I try and take care of her needs but I don't get back. I just keep giving and I don't want to give anymore because I'm tired. I dreaded being alone before. But I somehow learned how to. Maybe that's the best thing for me. Most people cannot deal with " truths". I just don't want to play the game anymore.
Sorry for this nonsensical rambling.

In this case you might be better off alone. There are other people who may be more receptive to you.

I relate, a good deal more than I'd like! I'm in a situation now, I feel like I gave my best, only to get another's worst. Is it me, what c/should I have done (I'm asking myself) ...I am afraid, Hon, sometimes the answers just don't add up. It hurts and I feel for you. For me, I have to convince myself, I try doing good by people. We do our best, right? No, I know that's painful x

It does seem you'd be better off alone unless you're both open to marital counseling. If not, I hope you leave and find somebody worthy of your love and affection. Best wishes.

I can understand how you feel. In the beginning , ( over 40 yrs. ago ) , it was an opposites attract thing. It worked for awhile. We kinda made up for each other's shortcomings. But then I found out we didn't have enough in common. After awhile , when the honeymoon wears off , it takes some WORK , by both parties to keep the relationship fresh and vibrant. Some people just tend to remind you of your not so good traits and ignore what your good ones are.
If you've given your best , and you know that , then stop torturing yourself by wondering what YOU may have done , or not done. Think about what your partner has done or not done. They try to come off as " holier than thou " , blaming you for everything. Taking no responsibility for their part in it all.
How's the communication ? Probably not there . How can they talk to you and have to admit that they may have faults ? Or apologize for anything. These people don't apologize for trying to ruin you. Because if they can't use you anymore they're done with you. Let the rational part of your brain take over.
Diminish the power of negative emotions. This is part of what needs to be done.
Don't ever let anyone think they're better than you . They are not !
Actually I'm starting to pity these poor hollow individuals.