I am at a breaking point. I was just laid off from one of my part time jobs. I was employed full-time between two jobs for all of three weeks. Some break I got from the job search. So now I have to find either another part-time job or a full-time position and am right back on the job search.

I cannot handle this anymore. It has been one life stress after another for months now, and literally, I am breaking down. I woke up severely depressed over my circumstances and burst into tears.

To boot, I have to move on top of finding employment, and I don't have much time. And I don't know yet if I qualify for partial unemployment benefits. I really need these benefits to survive. I will barely be able to afford a place with my one part time job.

Why can't I be given a break in life???? I feel like the universe wants to see me lose my marbles. I feel like someone out there is pushing me to the brink. If it's not one thing it's another..... I am SO sick of life challenges!

How do I cope with all of this stress??? How do I cope with the fact that I feel like someone is out to get me?????

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry that things are being so stressful Don't give up. You've fought up until now, I'm sure you can find another job

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Very sorry to hear that, Eve :sadhug
Don't let it make you paranoid, if you can help it. These are tough times economically. Most people seem to be struggling. And thinking it's their fault.

Keep chipping away, dear Eve. You'll have little breakthroughs. And then more...

Big hugs.

Originally Posted by golden_eve

I am at a breaking point. I was just laid off from one of my part time jobs. I was employed full-time between two jobs for all of three weeks. Some break I got from the job search. So now I have to find either another part-time job or a full-time position and am right back on the job search.

I cannot handle this anymore. It has been one life stress after another for months now, and literally, I am breaking down. I woke up severely depressed over my circumstances and burst into tears.

To boot, I have to move on top of finding employment, and I don't have much time. And I don't know yet if I qualify for partial unemployment benefits. I really need these benefits to survive. I will barely be able to afford a place with my one part time job.

Why can't I be given a break in life???? I feel like the universe wants to see me lose my marbles. I feel like someone out there is pushing me to the brink. If it's not one thing it's another..... I am SO sick of life challenges!

How do I cope with all of this stress??? How do I cope with the fact that I feel like someone is out to get me?????

Consider taking an entry level job completely outside of your career field. When you are looking for jobs within your career field, many employers will understand that you had to do what needed to be done to make ends meet. Also, are you applying for jobs within your career field in low cost cities? In the Northeast, your wages have to be a lot higher to survive......

Thank you all.

Mickey, thanks... I am just SO damned tired of the fight. I feel I cannot keep going like this. I cannot keep up the strength and will to survive. I've always had to fight my way through..... I am soo done with it all. But thank you for sending me some strength to try and get through this battle, too.

Purple, thank you as well.. it is hard not to be paranoid right now. But you're right... it's tough times economically and I have had little breakthroughs.... hopefully this will prove to be short-lived, but I just don't know. Hard not to feel like the universe is working against me.

Hoping, thanks as well.... I don't know about an entry level job. I need a certain amount to survive here where I live. Plus, in order to progress, I really should get a full-time job in my field at a salary commensurate with my experience level.

Ugh is all I can say right now.

I know how it all feels. I'm desperately trying to find a FT job. I hear it all, "hang in there", you'll find something soon", don't give up". I know people mean well though.

Originally Posted by Deborah35

I know how it all feels. I'm desperately trying to find a FT job. I hear it all, "hang in there", you'll find something soon", don't give up". I know people mean well though.

I know.... it's very hard to be looking for work. I fully understand! I had been looking for TWO YEARS before I landed my most recent part-time job, then got laid off from my other job. Now to have to be back on the search after two years of interviewing, I don't know how to cope.

Sending you strength and wishing you all the best... I know how enormously difficult is. It's like an endurance test.

[divine1966]

Sorry to hear that. It sure is stressful.

I don’t know if loss of part time jobs qualifies you for unemployment?

If you need to pay bills, you’d have to take any job. You can continue looking for a better job while working. I know sometimes it feels that you are the only one struggling when things get tough, but it’s simply not the case. Having to pay bills and work out butts off unfortunately is the common theme for most adults (very few have luxury not to worry about it). You do what you got to do. Hustle. So find out about unemployment and depends on the outcome go get any job, just to pay bills and to qualify to sign Apartment lease. You can do it

Originally Posted by divine1966

Sorry to hear that. It sure is stressful.

I don’t know if loss of part time jobs qualifies you for unemployment?

If you need to pay bills, you’d have to take any job. You can continue looking for a better job while working. I know sometimes it feels that you are the only one struggling when things get tough, but it’s simply not the case. Having to pay bills and work out butts off unfortunately is the common theme for most adults (very few have luxury not to worry about it). You do what you got to do. Hustle. So find out about unemployment and depends on the outcome go get any job, just to pay bills and to qualify to sign Apartment lease. You can do it

Thanks Divine.

Yes, loss of a part time job probably does qualify me for unemployment. I am well aware that I am not the only one suffering or dealing with things like this. If I insinuated differently, that most certainly is not my viewpoint. I just have been dealing with one life challenge after another for years now and I cannot deal with it anymore.. I feel like the universe works against me and is out to make my life hard. ALWAYS. I am not playing victim here so PLEASE no one even say this to me. I am being matter of fact.

First I dealt with four abusive bosses - back-to-back. Next, I dealt with a work-related injury, a year and a half long battle with the insurance company for workers compensation, and three years of unemployment. Next, I was targeted in graduate school in my first year by a professor when I questioned him on a grade. He yelled and flailed his arms around at me, so I took it to the Dean. So what happens? He retaliates by submitting an official complaint against me saying I am unfit to be a mental health counselor, making up lie after lie after lie about my behavior and performance in class. So I left graduate school, despite a nearly perfect transcipt. Next? I have a mental breakdown in California after leaving school & my entire dream to move out west got crushed. Next? I have to move back home with my parents. Next? I finally gain a decent job only to be laid off... second layoff in my life.

You see? It's been ongoing for YEARS. I AM SO DONE.

I cannot get another job until I move. There is no point. I don't know where I am moving, therefore, where I move will determine where I get work, if I don't qualify for unemployment.

I really feel like throwing in the towel and offing myself. I am starting to feel like this is what the universe is pushing me to the brink of doing. Why the hell should I even stay or bother to fight anymore????? I have no fight left within me to continue battle after battle after battle. Once one ends, the next begins. I am DONE.

[divine1966]

If you feel like offing yourself please please take yourself to the hospital. Or at least call your doc or therapist. Loss of a job is very stressful. No doubt. Call your therapist. Get help.

[Open Eyes]

(((golden_eye))),

I am sorry that you got laid off from one of your part time jobs. I honestly don't know if that qualifies you to be able to collect unemployment while you look for another job.

I know that it can "feel" like there is a force out to pull you down, but, try not to consider this "feeling" a true fact. It's ok to feel down and vent, after all no one likes to lose a job and it can feel like the end too. One never knows when a job hunt can end up being something that can be a positive in one's life. Also, have you ever tried going to a temp agency? Years ago I worked for a temp agency and ended up getting two jobs from just being a temp someplace and I also met a lot of people I never would have met otherwise. A lot of people are struggling, even ones that have jobs and are struggling to make ends meet. Have you ever thought about investigating one of the providers like "visiting angels" where you can work as a person that visits an elderly person just to do some light cleaning and errands for them as well as keep them company? I don't know what job you lost if it was a night job or day job, but maybe you could pick up a waitress job in a nice possibly high end restaurant to earn some money until you find something better. That's a way to possibly meet a nice guy too. You may even check out some golf clubs if there are any around your location where you live to see if they might be looking for help.

[Deejay14]

One word for now golden...PERSPECTIVE. More on that tomorrow. Very tired right now.

Originally Posted by divine1966

If you feel like offing yourself please please take yourself to the hospital. Or at least call your doc or therapist. Loss of a job is very stressful. No doubt. Call your therapist. Get help.

Thanks, I'm OK. I saw my therapist and have calmed down since then.

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

(((golden_eye))),

I am sorry that you got laid off from one of your part time jobs. I honestly don't know if that qualifies you to be able to collect unemployment while you look for another job.

I know that it can "feel" like there is a force out to pull you down, but, try not to consider this "feeling" a true fact. It's ok to feel down and vent, after all no one likes to lose a job and it can feel like the end too. One never knows when a job hunt can end up being something that can be a positive in one's life. Also, have you ever tried going to a temp agency? Years ago I worked for a temp agency and ended up getting two jobs from just being a temp someplace and I also met a lot of people I never would have met otherwise. A lot of people are struggling, even ones that have jobs and are struggling to make ends meet. Have you ever thought about investigating one of the providers like "visiting angels" where you can work as a person that visits an elderly person just to do some light cleaning and errands for them as well as keep them company? I don't know what job you lost if it was a night job or day job, but maybe you could pick up a waitress job in a nice possibly high end restaurant to earn some money until you find something better. That's a way to possibly meet a nice guy too. You may even check out some golf clubs if there are any around your location where you live to see if they might be looking for help.

TY.

Great suggestions, though I can't think about getting another job right now.... my head is not wrapped around the concept that I have to apply for jobs again.

I am waiting until Friday when I find out more about unemployment....

Originally Posted by Deejay14

One word for now golden...PERSPECTIVE. More on that tomorrow. Very tired right now.

TY. That is in fact very helpful. I DO need to keep perspective!!!

[wolfgaze]

Originally Posted by golden_eve

I feel like the universe wants to see me lose my marbles.

That's actually a very accurate observation!

The Universe works to arrange circumstances which ultimately fuel conscious growth (evolution)... And it's the difficult and challenging experiences which are one of the biggest drivers of this process.

For most of us, it requires being pushed to the brink where we reach a point where we feel like we can no longer continue on thinking, feeling, and perceiving in the limiting manner that we had become accustomed to throughout most of our lives.

It's when you feel like you can't handle/take anymore that something opens up within you, and you see a new direction to travel down. The further along you go - the more it starts to make sense why you've experienced everything you have, up until that point.

So you see, I don't view what you're reporting here as sad or tragic - I see it as functional and purposeful. Doesn't make much sense while you're going through it (I get that) - but it will look completely different once you push through it all and then look back with hindsight and a newfound awareness. Keep going!

[Mysterygirl202]

Originally Posted by golden_eve

I really feel like throwing in the towel and offing myself. I am starting to feel like this is what the universe is pushing me to the brink of doing. Why the hell should I even stay or bother to fight anymore????? I have no fight left within me to continue battle after battle after battle. Once one ends, the next begins. I am DONE.

Please don't do that.

I don't know you, but what I do know is this:
I literally didn't see anything I had to live for, I felt totally at the end like you.. but 7 years later I can't imagine having given up. Everyone I've met, all the joy my friends I currently have bring into my life. All the joy of life and nature, movies, songs, art, and all. I can't imagine having just given up in my darkest day even though that was my exact plan.

If you gave up today, I can 100% guarantee you that future you would've regretted it.

There's always a way.

Golden_eve,
You are in a situation where the universe is forcing you to be patient. Hopefully your unfortunate situation will eventually bring about an opportunity that is a good fit for you. Look for help where you can find it and consider jobs you have never considered before. Try meditation or long walks once the weather gets warmer. Spring is coming to the northeast soon. Keep shaking the bushes and something has to happen eventually. You are in my prayers and thoughts.

Originally Posted by wolfgaze

That's actually a very accurate observation!

The Universe works to arrange circumstances which ultimately fuel conscious growth (evolution)... And it's the difficult and challenging experiences which are one of the biggest drivers of this process.

For most of us, it requires being pushed to the brink where we reach a point where we feel like we can no longer continue on thinking, feeling, and perceiving in the limiting manner that we had become accustomed to throughout most of our lives.

It's when you feel like you can't handle/take anymore that something opens up within you, and you see a new direction to travel down. The further along you go - the more it starts to make sense why you've experienced everything you have, up until that point.

So you see, I don't view what you're reporting here as sad or tragic - I see it as functional and purposeful. Doesn't make much sense while you're going through it (I get that) - but it will look completely different once you push through it all and then look back with hindsight and a newfound awareness. Keep going!

TY! That's a really interesting perspective! I had never thought of it in this way...... I like it a LOT!!!!

I am very spiritual and tend to think in terms of energy.. universal energy... and God, the Angels and my own Spirit Guides leading me down certain paths. I know some people (or many) may not ascribe to this belief system... but that is why I felt that the universe was forcing me to the brink. I've been wondering WHY??? What am I supposed to gain from this and why is it happening, MOST especially NOW???

Thank you for your insights and thoughts -- they help!!!

Originally Posted by Mysterygirl202

Please don't do that.

I don't know you, but what I do know is this:
I literally didn't see anything I had to live for, I felt totally at the end like you.. but 7 years later I can't imagine having given up. Everyone I've met, all the joy my friends I currently have bring into my life. All the joy of life and nature, movies, songs, art, and all. I can't imagine having just given up in my darkest day even though that was my exact plan.

If you gave up today, I can 100% guarantee you that future you would've regretted it.

There's always a way.

TY my dear. I am far better now and no longer feel that way. That was one day when I felt pushed seriously to the edge, and that's where my thoughts tend to go. I would never harm myself though. I have too much to live for, to much to accomplish still, and too much to experience yet. It comes and goes for me during challenging times. I hate that my thoughts go there, but it is what it is. TY for your caring concern!

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

Golden_eve,
You are in a situation where the universe is forcing you to be patient. Hopefully your unfortunate situation will eventually bring about an opportunity that is a good fit for you. Look for help where you can find it and consider jobs you have never considered before. Try meditation or long walks once the weather gets warmer. Spring is coming to the northeast soon. Keep shaking the bushes and something has to happen eventually. You are in my prayers and thoughts.

TY! Yes, the universe is forcing me to be patient and to move in new directions right now. I have to have faith that things will fall into place. I lose my faith in times of trouble and then I lose my way. I will keep praying since I do pray.... thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers!!!