How are you coping today?

I am not handling life too good today,I can't face it,I hibernated all day sleeping on the sofa,I was so tired and lacked energy,I felt weak,and I was seriously depressed.

today in the UK it's mothers day.

I don't have a mother, (or a mother that wants anything to do with me), so today's hard

made slightly easier though by the fact that comercials for it arn't everywhere like most years. just sucks that in sted of going out with my mother like most individuals, I'm staying in doing **** all.

yesterday I had a panic attack because I only had 5 peaces of chicken for dinner (all that was in the house), and I can't cope with odd numbers

I also really dislike my new body spray, the smell of it does not apeal (does not smell that womanlike)

I am having difficulty in that I had a root canal on Tuesday (I have to go back for part two this Tuesday) well, the clamp that they attached to my tooth ripped my gum to bits. Also they seemed to take most of my tooth away and now it is even with my gum line. So every time I eat or talk it hurts.

It just seems like they don't care about me at all. Tried of having to have torture to get health care.

Can definitely relate. My parents are dead and I am not a mother. Plus my mom got the news of her impending death on Mother's day. Very painful every year.

I did not cope well today at all I feel upset all day and so very,very lonely.As my sister and I don't get on I took my mum flowers for mother's day last Sunday and let my sister visit mum today.

Horrible! Everyone start spying on !e and ganging up on me today the second I start my day

Today I'm coping with things okay, but I know I could have handled things differently by doing something productive with my day. I pretty much rested in bed all day because I didn't feel good from my anxiety being so severe. Now I finally feel calm and relaxed for once and I'm grateful for that. I never know when my anxiety will rise.

Getting up early is the only way to cope with things, it makes so much difference. Everything is easier when I have got up early and have more time, more organised. I really NEED to keep doing it. I've been trying to get up before 8 every morning and now trying to get up before 7, and around 6 on days I have to go out or be up for some other reason.

But sometimes I can't help lying there daydreaming about M, and once I start, it's hard to stop. But I really need to just get up and do things, and then later if I have time, then daydream about him.

Today I got up at 7 after daydreaming for about an hour, which is fine but tomorrow and Friday I will have to get up around 6, and not lie there daydreaming, making myself late.

I don't have much family left

now you mention it, it's really got me to thinking about who I do actually have

my grandmother's past away (she had dimentia), both my grandad's are gone, my uncle's gone too, I have no idea what happened to my aunt (think she's somewhere, just not wanting to talk to any of us), my siblings are alive but don't want to connect, and my mother well, she's getting old

it all seems such ashame really

have a general sense of shame today. mainly about where I am in terms of age, and how little I've achieved in life

watching a kids thing today eating bourbon biscuits and thinking.. really?. is this all life is now?

(I taught alexa how to sing round and round the garden. )

listening to her singing it, while imagineing I'm being tickled by someone with soft skin.

yep.... my life is, crap

I am having sausage rolls for my main dinner.

sausage rolls

I mean where does that even come from

I love sausage rolls.I coed well today,I did all the housework ,the house was a mess and the kitchen untidy,the dishes dirty,the bathroom filthy,bits all over the carpet,blankets needed a wash and throws and duvet cover and pillowcases needed changing,hoover up and down.I did it all and the man came and installed my CCTV.Considering the home was a dirty disorganised mess and I got it all cleaned, firstly while the man installed the CCTV and also after he left and finished the job, I cope well with the day I think.I didn't panic when the lad doing the CCTV asked to use the bathroom but it was embarrassing cos it was dirty in there.Now all the chores are done and the home is clean and tidy I feel better and will cope better with the rest of the week.

My stress sucks. I legit ate a Reese’s egg and a lite lemonade for dinner and my stomach still feels like it’s on fire. I’m going to end up being 100 pounds with bad teeth the way I’ve been eating and drinking diet drinks lately. I’m glad I don’t have stress the opposite way though.

I am coping ok so far although I am tired and stressed out,I really just want to go to bed but I have to go to the doctor this morning,my eyes keep wanting to close.I am going to sleep for 40 more minutes until it is time to leave the house.

how often do you go to the dentist?

if you're like me, hardly like ever

I probably have really bad teeth but I don't go because they scare me

so far no sleep and really bad back (especially on my left side)

I burned the toast again too

though I'm getting used to eating it burned. it's not so bad

Just having to accept things how they are, and that I messed up and nothing can be done about that now. So just go along with whatever happens now.

I see the dentist twice a year for a checkup and cleanings and then I’ll see her again if I need cavities filled. I go to a mobile clinic it’s $30 a visit so very inexpensive. They are really nice and the care is great. I hate the dentist too, but I kind of have to go.

I am coping poorly. Home now though, and eating late lunch / early dinner.

I was tired all day,but I pressed on and went to my appointments,visited my mum,collected my medication from the pharmacy,had a late lunch at Subway and got home in time for the grocery delivery.

I feel like throwing up today for some reason. It was another low calorie day. My anxiety was high earlier. Right now it’s not terrible. There’s some big changes that are going to happen at work and I think they are bothering me a lot more then I’m letting on.

what the **** have KFC done to their fries?

that is the first thing I could think of posting

yesterday I had KFC (chicken and fries), and a pepsi

pepsi- yum yum

chicken- yum yum

fries..... didn't taste like the salty, delicious chips i've come to expect from KFC.

they tasted more like potato

I know fries are made from potato, that's not the point

the point is you could actually taste the potato in them

you shouldn't be able to do that

feeling gross after my shower, but otherwise good today.

I am struggling a bit but am going for a meal and a film to take my mind off of my troubles!

back pain gave me another night with no sleep (far too painfull to lie down)

I got my nails painted today

they look beautiful

Today was not a good day for me.

Yesterday, I sent someone packing because they pretended to care for me. We were supposed to meet up for coffee and made me understand it wasn't gonna be possible, that family members had made last minute plans with them. So i told them what I thought and to stop taking me for an imbecile. All of a sudden, I became the one who was having a misunderstanding. That coffee for today was still a go if I wished.

Guess what happened this morning? They cancelled. "Too much to do. Too little time." Well, go eat a brick. I'm tired of people,they're all the same. Why the comedy of the alleged misunderstanding and still insisting about wanting to see me only to cancel ? I'm in this place for a limited time but people who are always here are a priority obviously. And I'm going to be gaslighted for my reaction. No I don't believe my reaction is wrong,enough is enough.

On top of that I had other plans today. My right foot is very sore I'm limping and I'm hurting all over so moving has been difficult today. I got ready late, I get to the train station, the train ticket machine decides to make me lose time and because of that I lost my train!!! So I call to explain, and I'm told not to come because the weather is about to get nasty. So,I lost 4 euros in train ticket because it's only valid today, and guess what? The weather is still the same. F this. F everything. And when I'm having days like this, people wonder why I'm upset? I got ready and pretty while in tremendous pain, only to go nowhere and stay home.

F my life.