In the past 3 years or so, my life has been basically a long lonely and isolated journey. I live alone. I don't have anyone to talk to. I have no hobbies or interests. No relationships. No activities. Now that I have no job, I just stay at home doing nothing. My life basically can be summarized by sleeping 8-10 hours/day, watching videos and surfing the Internet for the rest of the day to kill time, barely eating and cleaning, barely going out once every 7-10 days or so. I don't know if it can get any worse. Maybe if I get a chronic unbearable pain or a terminal illness. I feel I am the only one who lives like this. A life of absolute emptiness and meaninglessness. I wish I just could vanish. Being alive is just a waste of time.

[IceCreamKid]

Originally Posted by Sans Nom

In the past 3 years or so, my life has been basically a long lonely and isolated journey. I live alone. I don't have anyone to talk to. I have no hobbies or interests. No relationships. No activities. Now that I have no job, I just stay at home doing nothing. My life basically can be summarized by sleeping 8-10 hours/day, watching videos and surfing the Internet for the rest of the day to kill time, barely eating and cleaning, barely going out once every 7-10 days or so. I don't know if it can get any worse. Maybe if I get a chronic unbearable pain or a terminal illness. I feel I am the only one who lives like this. A life of absolute emptiness and meaninglessness. I wish I just could vanish. Being alive is just a waste of time.

I am sorry you feel your life has no meaning. I understand that feeling. Is there one thing you can do today that will bring some interest back? What about a walk around the block? What about changing your name to Avec Espoir?

If the weather was warmer, then maybe I would go for a walk, but I don't like to walk out in the coldness of winter, especially when the sidewalks are slippery, which they are these days. But even when I went out during the summer, I still felt the same at the end of each day. I really have no idea what I can do that could bring some change to my life. Avec Espoir doesn't describe me. I am invisible to everyone and just a shape of a person without a name.

That translates to "with hope". I think that is an amazing suggestion

Yes, I know what it means. I choose names that describe me, or how I feel. "With Hope" is not even a close description of me. Hope is alien to me.

[stewartmays1]

you are not alone im the same way been out of work for 18 years now family all dead no real friendships it sucks but i still beleave life is out thier if you really want it.

i made the effort to reconect with old friends some did not want to know me but maneged to reconect with at least one old friend its a start.

also i like to try every week to improve my life in some way today i tried to do a course shame it did not happen oh well i will try something else

you will get good days and then bad ones its life maybe sit down and make a plan on what you are going to do with your life. lately i sat down and made a activty list it helps give me a pourpose to live just got to keep trying

I have quit trying. I tried many times many things. Nothing worked.

Originally Posted by Sans Nom

In the past 3 years or so, my life has been basically a long lonely and isolated journey. I live alone. I don't have anyone to talk to. I have no hobbies or interests. No relationships. No activities. Now that I have no job, I just stay at home doing nothing. My life basically can be summarized by sleeping 8-10 hours/day, watching videos and surfing the Internet for the rest of the day to kill time, barely eating and cleaning, barely going out once every 7-10 days or so. I don't know if it can get any worse. Maybe if I get a chronic unbearable pain or a terminal illness. I feel I am the only one who lives like this. A life of absolute emptiness and meaninglessness. I wish I just could vanish. Being alive is just a waste of time.

their are plenty of people that live your life- plenty

some who have it worse even.

I myself struggle to fill days (can't work), and live with chronic pain issues

I do try and get out once a week to do my shopping, but that's it- if possible I try to get it online since it is quite hard for me to actually be out for long periods of time

Welcome to the party pal. I blame it on working. I have zero time to make friends or anything else. On the weekends I do the same as you.

At one time I got laid off and I really thought I was going to lose my mind. I stayed home all day. I ended up going to work just to stay sane.

I worry about retirement.

I say start your own business... if you get a job, you can close up shop.

[avlady]

I have problems with feeling hope too. I have a son and a husband, live too far to visit family lot even though it is an hours drive back and forth. i am in chronic pain from back desease, am schitzophrenic and have seizures. i am scared to go anywhere as i don't want to have a seizure. Then i told myself i was going to try something and i am happy i did. I joined the senior center near my home and i have so much fun with the elderly. i always was interested in working with seniors i even took social courses in college about gerentology. there is hope you just need to try more things you have even a slight interested in.

Originally Posted by Sans Nom

Maybe if I get a chronic unbearable pain or a terminal illness.

Dude. I have a terminal illness. I did it to myself...

You need to come up with a strategy plan to get your mind releasing so many endorphins that you won't even recognize yourself in a year or two.

I will share a little about why I spent almost 11 years trying to make a point...but we need money.

Honesty creats magic. I'm just a guy, but blocked most of it out. I find that being true to oneself...make no exceptions or diversions.

Ps. Nobody is watching us. They are also thinking about the same thing.

We all don't need tools to hide it (no offense), we are the way we are. Just today in a train ride from the city casino, some guy I was talking to just showed me his scars. I returned the implication that we are the way we are.
He was shivering from anxiety and told me the exact same thing I've been hiding from this whole time. I just regret not taking a picture of the young man. My train arrived...I could have opened up completely with him.

Find your idol. Mine is superman

It's amazingly healthy to follow a positive figure in this cold world.

And always. Remember you are loved. Don't debate it. Take care, but be safe