I can’t cope anymore

I’m cracking. I’m severely depressed. COVID has gotten to me along with my unemployment and marital issues.

I really don’t have the strength anymore. I want to go to sleep and wake up in a different life.

I need far more strength to get through this. And I’m afraid it’s gone

Hey @Have Hope hang on.. you are not alone in this.

Tough times isn’t it. There is a thread in some sub forum on PC where people share positives of the pandemics, You got to be kidding me. Positives? And I am in general a positive person but there is nothing positive in Covid!!!!

Things get better. They always get better. Don’t give up. Hugs

Thanks @sarahsweets.

I know I'm not alone, though it feels that way due to the isolation. I know MANY are struggling. It's all over the news, and I see it on Facebook with some friends. It's SO hard right now.

Thanks @divine1966.

It IS tough times, all around. I am generally positive too, but lately I haven't been feeling that way and it's making it harder for myself. I can't seem to snap out of it. Receiving job rejections doesn't help, nor does not hearing back from an employer after I've applied.

Have Hope, time heals. I have been in your situation where I was going through a divorce and lost my job at the same time. I weathered the storm by depending on my family and learning a new language to keep myself busy. It has been about ten years since these tumultuous times, I can vouch that life improves if you find ways to heal yourself and stay away from trouble. As you know, I have poor judgment at times with men and other issues. This poor judgment has gotten me in trouble. However, I have learned from my mistakes and am happier now. I am focusing on my life now and surviving. I am living a life now which is better than I expected because I found a job that has helped me to become independent. So, please persevere! I believe, you will live in the light again one day and look back at your past as just a period through which you overcame and survived! I say give yourself a few years to recover fully. Hopefully, you will bounce back soon but don't rush your recovery if you need the time to heal

@bpforever1, thanks so much. I need to hear encouragement right now, and your words are encouraging.

I think for me, my world has just all caved in at once and I am overwhelmed by how much I am dealing with simultaneously.

I am leaning on friends and family when I can, but I am trying to also not overwhelm them with my problems. There's only so much others can do.

I do lean on one girlfriend the most, and at least once per week we talk at length on the phone. That helps. Therapy helps. And keeping myself as busy as possible helps.

Dealing with COVID, along with unemployment, a grueling job search, strained finances, and periodically arising marital issues is proving to be very draining for me, and I am depressed. I fight through that depression each and every day.

It's just tough right now all around - COVID has presented all sorts of problems for people across the globe, and many are seriously suffering. The political atmosphere is not helping either. I am really on edge regarding the upcoming US election.... not to get into politics on here, but it's most upsetting for me too.

It's just not a good situation right now, and fighting through depression is very exhausting. It's hard to keep up the fight every single day. It's hard to remain positive every single day. Some days are better than others. Some days I feel relatively Ok and I can battle through, and other days, I crumble and want to crawl into my bed for the day.

Hang in there, Have Hope!

HaveHope, have you ever heard the term "Dark night of the Soul"?
Personally, I see it as part of our old way of being as dying off or purging out. This allows for a glorious transformation to occur if you allow it.
While horrible to go thru, in hindsight, you will see it was worth it.

My own journey has been one of deep transformation. I've been brought to my knees many times, but all that pain has brought me to a place of grace, deep empathy, and a spiritual journey I absolutely love.

All this while dealing with being bipolar since my teens (not fun) and mostly unmedicated (again not fun). It has been an incredibly difficult painfilled life, in so many ways felt like a lifelong Dark night of the Soul. I can still cry when I think back on some of my most painful times, but they are tears of empathy for what I went thru, not tears of sorrow.

But I reap the rewards today.
Dark nights of the Soul are always worth it (in the end).

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experience and journey! I can relate to your experience, the pain and the empathy. I can also relate to the spiritual transformation you speak of. Sounds almost like transcendence.

Thank you. This helps me more than you know.

Yes can relate to feeling alone now, worried about job security, tired of Covid and restrictions.

Sometimes watch my favorite tv shows sometimes and have started playing piano again.

I hear you. I'm very tired of COVID myself. I think we all are. I lost my job, so I have no job. But fewer jobs are secure these days.

Hang in there. It's great you started playing piano!

Update: I go through ups and downs, but I feel a lot better since I started this thread. Some days are better than others.

Glad to hear you are doing better. I too was worried about the elections early on. There were rumors that something catastrophic was going to happen, but as we get closer I am not seeing any signs of anything major. I didn't watch them but I heard the debates were kind of a dud. The closer we get to the holidays the more I hope we all find some commonality and stop the bickering in the country and the world for a while.

You are doing great! Keep it up!!

Thanks, Guy.

I am still VERY worried about the election. I watched the debate the other night and was not impressed or happy about it at all. I am not for Trump at all. I do not have high hopes of our country. It's very discouraging.

I too am struggling with trying to cope in this new world. My Wife recently asked for a separation, and that she doesn't think she can be fully happy in our marriage. Which I do get, but living on my own, picking my kids up for visitation weekends always felt like something other people did. But I am struggling with trying to find the positives. I know I need to do a LOT of personal work, but I simply can't find the motivation...

So I hear you loud & clear!

I'm very sorry to hear this. It's not easy times right now, so dealing with a separation on top of everything is really hard. I feel for you.

And once again I’m down again. Very down. I’m in bed and want the nightmare to end. My husband and I fought this morning, for the first time in months. Everything is wearing on me today. My only bright spot is a couple upcoming interviews. But right now, I’m crying and am in bed, feeling very sorrowful and tired of the battles.

To top it off, this forum seems really slow and dead lately. Is PC slowly dying?

I'm really sorry that you are so down, Have Hope.

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Originally Posted by Have Hope And once again I’m down again. Very down. I’m in bed and want the nightmare to end. My husband and I fought this morning, for the first time in months. Everything is wearing on me today. My only bright spot is a couple upcoming interviews. But right now, I’m crying and am in bed, feeling very sorrowful and tired of the battles. To top it off, this forum seems really slow and dead lately. Is PC slowly dying?

I wonder if it has to do with the sale? Or maybe behind the scenes their were disputes between members or others ?

Thanks, Bill. I appreciate it.

Hard to know? It's just really slow lately on here. Seems emptied out.

I am sorry that you feel bad Better times ahead

Personally I know I haven’t been posting ( more just reading) as much because job has been so insane I can’t even...I think also more people spend time on their electronic devices working and doing other stuff due to covid that maybe they try to limit time on Internet? I actually have hand problem because I am on computer and phone so much. I try to limit my time typing stuff.

Thanks, Divine.

It really does come and go in waves. UP, DOWN, UP, DOWN. It's a bit crazy making. Today I feel better. My husband and I got over our fight and talked it all out. We had fun last night and got some decent sleep.

And yeah, what you say makes sense. Someone said maybe it's because of the recent forum errors that scared some people away, thinking the site will now be down.

It's just weird. I've never seen it so slow on here like this.

I'm sorry your job has been so insane. That's tough to deal with. Zaps the energy.

Thanks. It’s insane just because of covid, I guess it’s part of the course. Wearing a mask all day doesn’t help either. Plus we already had few corona cases at work. Covid needs to end

Glad you made up with your husband!