How are you coping today? #3

I received some terrible news today. It upset me very much. My inner critic came out and called me horrible names. It's my fault. I'm a terrible person. I've been trying to cope. I called my mom to talk. I guess that was good cause she made me laugh. I feel a little better.

Sending love to all those who need it.

I'm doing okay today, it was a quiet day and I didn't accomplish as much as I'd hoped but will try better tomorrow.

My motivation is consistently low and I'm fairly sure this is pandemic/lockdown related.

I am very glad to be in this thread with the rest of you. Thank you, each one of you, for sharing your thoughts & feelings. So much of what you say feels like me, things I'm not willing or can't say. How many others are there who feel like I do, some who don't even post? Thank you, Doc John ,
for this wonderful place, such a very helpful place.

Sometimes I think I have given out too much information via my posts but if it was helpful in any way (perhaps you aren't even referring to my posts )--then that is a good thing. Sometimes other people's behaviors disturb me and cause pain but it is also wrong to gossip about them and, besides that, my behaviors could by one reason for their troubles! Relationships are complicated. Though I have learned to not be afraid to call them out face to face and now realize that some of the behaviors of others are not my fault. But again, I am trying to be more careful about talking about others than I was when I first came to PC. Sometimes I fail at this but I am doing better than before about giving out TMI. I think most people make mistakes. IMO our behaviors cause the worst problems when we are not able to see how our mistakes effect others and try to change. I pray that I am getting better at seeing my faults and not hurting others.

So anyways, I admire that you are always so positive Breaking Dawn and while it is good to get off our chest some of things others have done--especially when they try to "rewrite" history in ways that seem dishonest, in the past, I have found it tricky to navigate balancing putting my feelings out there without putting others information out there. Like you I am also grateful that Doc John created this community. The posts and feedback at PC helped me better understand why I had a mental health crisis. I feel like I can relate to people here because many of them also had a mental health crisis. And many of us are still dealing with the fallout. This is WAY too long and I still talk too much but at least, on here, people can just skim if it strikes them as nonsense.

I feel like I am running behind today. And I don't have energy for my self-care today. I am too tired to focus on anything else. And I won't. I'm coping by setting my expectations of myself very low.

I'm good today Less controlled by my anxiety than in months

This is very wise, self care is important!

I'm doing okay, I got some jobs done at least, focussing on the positive. Oh and I sorted out my meal planner which is proving very helpful.

I'm doing a bit better right now. Things were not good this morning, nor much of yesterday. I've been having some physical issues, that because of my health anxiety were really getting me down. Those are just a little better this afternoon, though I know a long way from resolved. I think I changed my outlook on things just enough for my mind to calm down. I think generally my mind doesn't deal well with physical problems. It's easy to feel like they'll never get better. But they always have, though not as quickly as I would like. Patience is not one of my strong suits. But I am getting a little better at getting in front of my thoughts before they spiral out of control. I just know that I'm grateful to have a small respite.

I am trying. But it’s tough. I’m in the town I’m moving to and I’m in a hotel. The realtor screwed up and we are only looking at 3 houses this weekend. The first one is at 8:30 tomorrow. Which means I have to get up at 7. Which I rarely do. I took a unisom for anxiety tonight. So I hope I can sleep through the night. My mom said we don’t have to rush and buy anything we don’t want. So we are most likely going to come back. We went out to get food for dinner and I was creeped out and uncomfortable driving around. Plus the whole pandemic is still going on so it’s not 100% safe to stay in a hotel. I scrubbed every thing with Clorox wipes when I got here. I am using hand sanitizer like crazy and double masking. I have my own blanket and pillow case.

Plus Beverly Clearly died today and I’m super bummed about it. I just said yesterday I hoped she would make it to 105. My mom gets creeped out when I do that because I do it a lot. Pop phenomenon or whatever. I did it with Alan Rickman, Robin Williams, Ann B Davis, Helen Reddy and now Beverly Clearly. I also had Larry King and Christopher Plummer on my list although that wasn’t sudden like the other ones.

I'm doing better today. I got a few things done, which felt great. I organized a small area enough to see some noticeable results. And the sun finally came out! I'm in the mood for lots more days like this!

I have low energy again. I think it's because I'm having trouble sleeping. I'm trying to take care of my chores and do my self-care. I'm doing a little bit at a time.

Not well. I am not aware of it right now. I feel great. I feel euphoric almost drugged... I am waiting to crash soon.

Same physical thing. Was bad this morning, but much better now. I don't think I'm turning the corner on it yet, but I am feeling very grateful to be mostly pain free at the moment. Yesterday afternoon and this afternoon have been pretty awesome. So, not happy necessarily, but certainly on the more cheerful side. Wooo.

Doing okay. I went for a run this morning but the wind was strong and it tired me out. I probably shouldn't have gone out, it tired me.

Got some laundry and my floors done today but still on a go slow.

Sort of. ......

I am very very mixed today and all over the place. I was really disappointed. Then concerned and kinda embarrassed. then I felt physically sick. Now I just want to move now and I am nervous about going back to my current house. I didn’t think much about any therapist today but when I did think of one it was my current T. So that’s an improvement.

I am struggling but trying...

I am starting to calm down. I wish you all a good day. <3

I finally slept last night, so I'm glad about that. But I'm struggling with motivation this morning. I'm just trying to be patient with myself and focus on self-compassion.

Edit: Just a bunch of whining. Carry on.

So, yeah, today has been a roller coaster. As usual.

Hang on in there @AgentQ9A

It was a good day for me. I had the day off and went for a walk with my husband this morning. We watched the sea and drank coffee.

I cooked a nice lunch and then chatted with my sister on the phone, then I got some more tidying and sorting of paperwork done. Slow and steady.

Hope everyone is doing okay today.

Made a new friend and am hoping to keep them around to pursue shared interests. Brought a new model craft kit over to keep us busy. So far, so good.

I'm staying busy. But I'm a little stressed and need a nap. So I may go to bed early. Sleep is how I'm coping.