How are you coping today? #3

Things are quite a bit better today. Physical issue is better and I think I have a better handle on it now. The weather is really nice, maybe too warm for March/April, but that's going to be the deal. Went to the library to get a new card. That's about the first time I've been inside of a business since this all started. And the one I missed the most, but you know, anxiety. Didn't freak out and it went off without a problem.

Still feeling overwhelmed about the future but fortunately and unfortunately that's all on me. Fortunate, because I can't screw anyone else's life up but my own. Unfortunate, because I have little help and support for sorting it out. Feels hopeless. But, as a society we tend to tell people to pull up themselves up by their bootstraps and that's all I'm going to get for help. I'm hoping that with vaccines being more widely available and states starting to roll back restrictions, that the economy will pick up. Still feels like my "time" is passed and I should just lie down in a hole and die. Too young for that, but too old to do too many things to help myself. At least I'm at the bottom of the happiness U curve, so it should all be up from here.

I’m trying just to hang on. Things are such a mess and up in the air right now with absolutely everything. We don’t know yet if we got the house. We’re just waiting around for the realtor to call. I’m also making calls to my surgeon and I had a kinda ridiculous Pdoc appointment which I feel very confused about. Basically my life is a **** show right now but everyone is telling me I’m supposed to feel confused and uncertain right now.

All I know is my anxiety and stuff was a lot better this past weekend when I was in the town I’m moving to

It was a strange day and something unexpected happened in the middle of it. I won't write too much here except to say I helped a stranger and I hope they are alright. It was a little traumatic and upsetting to witness but I kept calm.

Anyone else keep calm in a crisis and get anxious over less important matters? It's a strange contradiction.

My day was otherwise a nice happy one and got some more of my to do list done. Slowly and steadily, a little each day.

I'm coping with pain meds and coffee. I didn't sleep well and I have a lot to do today. I did just a little bit and felt worn out and in pain. I plan to sleep more soon. I'll try some heat and see if that helps. I may change my plans for the day and skip most of my self-care. I don't think I will do any housework either. I'll just take meds today and feed my cats. I won't even cook today. I will eat takeout. I have zero energy.

A little wobbly today. I was pretty motivated last night about pulling my head out of my backside and getting back into life. That was an amazing feeling. We got snow overnight. Even though it's sunny now, it's still cold. I also got up an hour earlier than normal. Tired and cold usually causes problems. Normally, I'd let myself spiral but I've been getting better about noticing when things are going off track and putting an early stop to it. I am going to give myself a little extra care today, rather than beat myself up for continuing to be a disappointing loser. I actually made myself some real lunch and got some laundry going.

I don't hold out high hopes for the day, but neither am I dreading it. We'll see how it goes.

Today was emotional. Most of it was wonderful but also tinged with mixed emotions. I got to properly see my parents in their garden for the first time in many months because of social restrictions.

I'm not sure how to even describe my feelings right now.

Trusting myself more, asking for help when I need it and totally ignoring poor behavior from those I expect more from. Also, seeing a new friend.

I'm a little stressed this morning but I'm trying to work things out so that I feel more comfortable. I just have to have a lot of faith.

Today was ok, certainly better than yesterday. I cried most of the day yesterday. But I was just a bit overwhelmed with school work I guess. Today I decided to start working late and readjust once again my expectations of myself.

Starting to see vaccine openings pop up locally, which is great. They're about to open up to everyone, but I'm in one of the last of the scheduled bunch. Crossing my fingers.

Other than that, doing OK today. Physical issue is hanging on but still better than a couple weeks ago. Not a great effect on my day, so manageable. The day is a little warmer, should be 70s by the weekend. I'm planning to meet with a friend for coffee on Sunday. Otherwise, doing OK today. Not great, not terrible. I'll take average happily.

Edit: I am scheduled! Now I can worry if I'll die after the vaccine and abandon my pups. But, yay anyway!

Edit 2: No time to kennel the pups for the first, but I might for the second. You know, because of anxiety.

Edit 3: I'm giddy and worried at the same time. It's disconcerting.

Coping well (by my stabdards), bouncing back better than in previous times. And haven't touched a drop in over a year. Good.

Congratulations, mote.of.soul! That's absolutely wonderful!!

Aw, thank you @Breaking Dawn. You're a nice person.

I'm not doing well today. I'm not sure how to cope. I'm just plowing through.

I had a lot of caffeine but my moods are ok. I did a bit of reassurance seeking but it’s a stressful time for me. But I got all my laundry and chores done and I kept up with my hygiene and I made it to my calorie goal and I didn’t go over or under. So I did good today on everything.

I have had a very social week as restrictions have been lifted here for outdoors, I saw 3 friends and my parents separately. It was nice but I have found it exhausting. I'm an introvert essentially and socialising can drain me - guess I forgot that with lockdown lol.

Yesterday was a good day and I slept great last night--currently drinking my first cup of coffee. One of our dining room chairs had broke and I bought a new one on Amazon and paid more for it than it was worth. When my husband inquired about what I had spent on it , I had to confess that I had spent too much. So anyways, we had a productive conversation about finances. That he has always been so careful with money has helped us with our financial security. Being able to discuss the topic much better was good. That I am no longer paying for my son to stay in a hotel is very motivating. I now see a way forward to save. It is not like I haven't done it before. Though with the inflation I am expecting (but you never know for sure), what I paid for that chair might look like a bargain in a couple of years.

I’m struggling today but you can’t really tell. This afternoon I took 1mil of Xanax and then I took a bath and a really hot shower right after the bath. So I feel a bit better than I did earlier. I’m trying to eat more and to eat better and today was halfway a success.

I'm just taking things one step at a time. Soon I'll be able to relax and then my mood should improve. Yesterday, I did a couple of meditations. I think that is helping me get through today.

I am using positive self talk as much as I can.

This morning I was kind of crabby. And my mom asked why. And I said that my therapist told me sometimes you don’t need to have a reason to feel a certain emotion you just feel it. My mom was all like “whatever.” Then I said “you’ve been really crabby lately and I’ve been handling it fine.” And she said “I have a reason to be crabby.”

Like wtf? I can not be anything but butterfly’s and sunshine around that women or she gets upset but her and my brother can be crabby all they want and I’m just supposed to deal with it.

But today was tough but I am feeling better now.

I think I am coping well today. I went to a virtual service, read some inspirational stuff and played with my cats. It's put me in a good mood.

I'm feeling positive about my life today. It's a bright sunny, windy Easter Sunday and we sat by the river drinking takeaway coffee.

Sending love to all those who need it.

I am coping okay, though I can't say the same for my back

I genuanly think it's had it. or almost. hurting like crazy

but nice easter so far with nice weather to go with it

I’m doing pretty good today. I’m just keeping busy. Yesterday was hard but today I’m not really thinking about anything. I’m not having any thoughts about my old therapist unlike yesterday where the thoughts were almost unbearable.

I got a lot of stuff from my dresser and closet packed. I did spring cleaning a year ago and I really downsized. So the stuff I packed was able to fit into 2 boxes. I kept the stuff I currently wear out. I got all my stressful things put into the boxes. I thought it would be an issue. But my mom was just like “whatever” she’s really respecting my privacy and I appreciate it. when I said I wanted to close the boxes myself she didn’t care.

But yeah today is good.