How are you coping today? #3

Today I’m not feeling bad and I’m coping well. But I have a lot of sensory overload for some reason and I want to use my sensory things but I usually only use them at night. I really don’t want to start using them during the day because I’m worried they won’t work as well then at night when I absolutely need them.

I am depressed but Im doing ok.I cut my toe nails and waxed my face and eyebrows.a bit sad and very lonely,can't stand the isolation lockdown is causing.

I found out moments ago that my sense of humor is still with me. Thank goodness. That's probably my best coping mechanism/pal. Anyway, I'm doing ok at the moment.

I'm having a hard time today. None of my coping skills are helping me. Usually, I play my game and feeling at peace. But today, I don't want to play. I am in a bad mood. I feel angry. I guess it's time to go to bed.

That's great!

Working day so busy with no time for ruminations meant as usual I was doing so much better.

Since getting my cancer diagnosis, I had to cut my teaching slots but because one student kept requesting classes, I continued to teach once or twice a week (usually just on Monday because my chemotherapy was on Tuesdays). A couple of weeks ago, another former student came back. I have been teaching one class a day since then (Monday- Friday) and hope to teach more.

The last day of my daily radiation treatment is March 1st. I have good prospects of getting work in March or April with a company I have been working for for more than ten years. They work with many state education departments to design and grade student achievement tests. Most of it was done in scoring centers but some of the work that was done in scoring centers will be done "live" (supervised via camera). I am all set up for this type of work mode since I work "on camera" in my VIPKid teaching job. The radiation has not knocked me flat the way the chemo did. I am feeling good about the possibility of being able to go back to work again....

Just noticed another former signed up for classes (Mondays in China are when I get a lot of sign ups and then find them on Monday morning.) I had a quite a few regular students earlier last year and am hoping they continue to return.

I'm doing a bit better. I was able to play my game this morning. And I enjoyed myself. I also did some cooking, which always helps me feel good.

I am feeling stress today. We are getting a snow storm. I hate snow storms anyway but this one is supposed to go two days. TWO DAYS. Where it is going to snow and or rain for all of that time. I hate that. Can't leave the house, can't do anything.

I am planning on moving to the south in about 9 years when I retire.. and I wonder truly if I will make it.

I hate snow and storms and to me, it seems, they are growing more frequent.

Annoyingly also, the weather channel says we are getting about 6 inches of snow, every other channels says we getting 12 inches.

I watch two of my favorite movie on tv. That I thought would help me feel better since I been feeling really down lately.

I’m coping well today. My moods and anxiety are under control. I haven’t really given therapy or my therapist much of a thought. I’m pretty sure I do have a UTI. It’s difficult to go and my urine is cloudy and it also hurts to go. I’m just trying to work through it without going to the doctor. My jeans are really loose so that’s helping. But yeah so far the split dose is doing exactly what I wanted it to do.

Ugh it is getting much worse. So I thought I would go to bed. But something is up with the roof... I think ice is on it. Every time there is wind gust there is a massive noise. Like the roof is caving in. (I think it is ice sliding down it) So I couldn't sleep. So I got up and went downstairs and every time there is a gust the lights dim. Turns out the forecast was wrong. They said all day it would turn to rain, but it never has. But, it has been close. So the snow is really wet and heavy. So I checked the power company and there is TONS of outages. The next two hours should be the worst wind. If I can keep power I should be ok, if not, it could be a very long time until it is restored.

All of this sent me into what I think is a panic attack. Had one of these before when I got stuck in a snow storm away from my home.

I am shaking, can't get warm, and my stomach is upset. I feel like I need to throw up.

The only thing I had for dinner was pasta so it doesn't seem likely to have been something I ate.

Either the storms just keep getting worse or I am less able to deal with them. It seems every storm we have now is high on wind. Leading to power outages.

I'm struggling a little bit this morning. I'm coping by cleaning up my kitchen. I'm trying to do something productive. I might cook too.

So I got 3 whole hours sleep. Most of the night was devoted to the plows -- plowing -- and making tons of noise. We kept power all night but at 5 AM, right when I woke up... it went off for a minute and came back on. Most of the outages are sporadic...

Once again the weather forecasts were completely wrong... Even last night when I went to bed it said it was going to turn more warm but, it didn't. Absolutely useless.

Then it said it was going to continue all day but the radar now makes it clear it is wrapping up.

I need to out and shovel my car now.. I hope at least that isn't too bad.

And of course, now that my house is a winter ice / snow / water / dangerous area.. my cat is now limping for no apparent reason. No, he can't start limping when it is perfectly nice outside... no only when it is a disaster outside.

And though the plow plowed all night long, waking me up... now that it is sunny and clear? No plow. Of course.

I've had a really bad day today.Good thing is delivery slots for online grocery shopping are available again so getting a shop delivered tomorrow,I didn't have to do a big shop at the food hall today,which was a relief because I was really tired and lacking in energy.

The day went bad I was angry and frustrated cos an ex narc might be back on the scene and I'm having some really bad memories resurface,

Also am fuming,so very angry care home won't let me or my sister visit mum,and when we do visit we first have to have 30 minute lateral flow tests for covid and full PPE which gets disposed of in an ordinary bin,,,and then we allowed to visit mum once a week for only 30 mins.It costs me £16 there and back its a lift and a long walk to mums room and if shes in a bad mood its exhausting.

When I got home chores needed doing but I was toot tired I had cottage pie for lunch and broke my diet by ordering Macdonalds for dinner with two apple pies,so not good probably gonna gain weight.

Mood wise I’m coping great. And that’s all I’m glad about. I’m neglecting my physical health problems which I am being told is not good. Right now I am confident I can sleep this current stuff off.

I am super tired right now. I didn’t take my Geodon yet. But I took a couple meds that don’t make me hungry then I went out. So that could be why I’m so tired right now.

Given with what I had to work with and how I was feeling overall today, I think I coped well. At least as well as I felt I could.

I had trouble with my emotions a little bit but I think I coped pretty well.

Please pray for my family. My son still has not moved into an apartment. I struggle with how much I should be helping him. I have been praying to have the wisdom to know when to help. There have been many times I tried to help and it just made everything much worse. He cannot come home because of a serious incident (there actually have been more than one but I cannot reverse the fallout of the last one) and because the dynamics between my husband, him and me are so dysfunctional that we make my son's condition worse.

You're doing your best @TunedOut and that's all anyone can do. The prayer for serenity may be helpful for you. Sending love.

I guess I am coping but struggling a little, everyone is at the moment though. One step at a time, we'll get there.

Dear @TunedOut, I agree with what Discombulated said. And also about the Serenity Prayer. It must be awfully hard for you! I will be wishing & hoping & praying for you & your son. I'll be visualizing him receiving a lucky break in finding his new place to live & things working out. God bless you, our dear friend!

There’s nothing like taking a med that brings you back to the days you were in the mental health hospital. This Benadryl feels exactly like a sedative. Maybe I was even given Benadryl shots in the hospital. I feel exactly the same way. Drowsy and hungover and anxious.

I'm coping well. I've been laughing at funny images.

I am struggling tonight,I am restless and tired,tv is boring and I can't settle to do anything.
I have been very lonely tonight,and I am bored but gonna just see what there is to watch on tv and try to get through the night doing that.
I am having a brandy and coke hope I'll be ok cos I'm not meant to drink alohol with my new Blood Pressure meds.