[MickeyCheeky]

So Sorry that things have been so hard for you and So Sorry for the late reply as well. i think facebook and other social media can certainly get frustrating and this is a frustrating period for everyone i think. So Sorry if this forums isn't As Helpful as you hope it to be and So Sorry if my posts haven't been able to do much either. Please do not give up though. i think you're stronger than you think. Pm me if needed and i am sure that plenty of others will be glad to Help if you just ask. Let me know if i can do more. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @WovenGalaxy, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

@MickeyCheeky you have done nothing wrong.

[seesaw]

Hang in there, WovenGalaxy! You are strong, and you will get through whatever is challenging you. I believe in you.

I'm a worthless person. I haven't done anything with my life and I'm too scared to. I have no idea what my dream job is. Because I don't have one. I am likely going to do behind the scenes work in an office. I'm ok with this.

I'm very depressed. The cdc new guidelines really shook me up this morning. Kind if ****ed up my day. I'm sick of being alone. Sick of not connecting. Sick of no one caring. I feel like a waste.

Today has been a struggle and I dumped my thoughts and feeling out here. Thanks for listening.

Originally Posted by WovenGalaxy

I'm a worthless person. I haven't done anything with my life and I'm too scared to. I have no idea what my dream job is. Because I don't have one. I am likely going to do behind the scenes work in an office. I'm ok with this.

I'm very depressed. The cdc new guidelines really shook me up this morning. Kind if ****ed up my day. I'm sick of being alone. Sick of not connecting. Sick of no one caring. I feel like a waste.

I'm sorry hearing about this. So much of what you're saying is something that I can relate to for myself. As far as getting work that's behind the scenes, that's what I've been doing all along, including now. I really like it and felt like it's the right thing for me. But now, I have been posting about how much I don't like my job anymore and maybe getting out of it soon. I have been working at that job for 15 years; and I really loved my job in the past. I definitely don't now and I don't know where all of the love I had for my job went. Of course, I know why and it's because it's changed so much.

I'm pretty sick of being alone myself, and felt like I've been alone for a long time. I like my alone times but I don't like it being that way practically all of the time. Also I feel like people in general do not like me that much.
I don't have any suggestions. Just hope that things will get better. Oh, and one more thing, you're not worthless.

@will19 I'm sorry you're struggling too and I hope it gets better for you too.

Some of what I experience internally, is certainly depressive thinking and distorted thoughts. That being said, it can certainly feel barren and disconnected with certain places and ppl I frequent and...its up to me to either change where I go and who I hang out with, change my mentality, or just...accept it? I'm inclined to the first two options.

15 years is a long time, imo. I haven't worked in 8 years and the longest I've had a job was 3 years. Have you thought about looking for another job? We change.

Thanks for saying I'm not worthless. Neither are you.

Originally Posted by seesaw

Hang in there, WovenGalaxy! You are strong, and you will get through whatever is challenging you. I believe in you.

@seesaw thank you!

[BigBubba]

Stay strong !!!