How are you coping today? #7

I'm not coping today.

I have been having an absolutely horrible time thinking about mothers day, and how I don't have a mother, there won't be any celebrations, and that the last time I actually did something for my mother for mothers day



sort of glad I don't have one anymore, but aaaaa. the memories this time of year. not easy

I'm feeling.. childish
like a little girl with her stuffed teddy who just wants a cuddle

I’m getting things done that I’ve been meaning to do. It feels good.

definitely could be better, mothers day without a mother is never easy

but for some reason really hard this year

I've been bad in the last two weeks
Struggling with ex-friends having children while i am in a bed and dealing with parents loss
I lost contact with friends in 2017 -my fault)
I try my best to be happy for them and bless their kids, but won't message. It is over and i am not clingy at all. I regret losing my parents and control on my life way more than struggling with solitude. And i say this from an experienced point of view being in my mid 30s

Results: my house cleaning routine used to be on point, now it is beyond mess. I am doing a little bit everyday

I started my third week on Effexor, 75 mg. I finally feel it working! I have experienced mfd for over 30 years and have been on just about as many antidepressants! The Effexor 75 combined with 300 mg of Bupropion has suddenly allowed me to get out of bed and actually enjoy some time doing things I love. I am so grateful I finally feel better! Any suggestions on when I should up the Effexor?
Be kind.

I ate a bunch of candy at work this afternoon.

I vented to a family member about the idiot customers I had yesterday.

I ate a gross amount of candy at work.

I’ve been doing a lot of journaling.

I'm crying and journaling. I'm very lonely.

Day started out tough because I was really tired. Then it picked up and I got a lot of work done. I feel accomplished and that I got a lot done, now enjoying the evening.

Be gentle with yourself.

I had a productive morning, and that made me feel good. Functioning on not enough sleep though.

I’m eating candy at work again after not eating any candy for about five(?) days…

Emotional, but feeling pretty good. Thoughts always drift to my ex, but they are getting less and less.

I loved on the cats, chatted with a family member, held a piece of ice and ran it along my wrist, and smelled a bottle of lavender essential oil.

I found out yesterday (completely by accident), that someone who I thought was a friend lied to me just so she could get what she wanted from our friendship.

I am not going to tell her, because she simply doesn't care, but yes.. it hurts.

I am also hungry. I feel like I've tried everything food wise and I'm just not getting full

not sleeping

not going out

.. and other stuff

Definitely manic, or hyped up today due to all the events that happened, but in a really good place. Haven't felt this good in a long time. Feel like I have some sense of purpose.

Feeling okay today, I’ve been feeling calm all week even through a challenging encounter a few days ago. Not sure why, I’m normally more anxious than this but I’ll take it.

Feeling a bit better today, thoughts drift to my husband, but I am staying strong. Just hope he's okay.

Tried to

Trying to hang in there, but overall pretty good.

feeling like a bit of a heartless *****

I just read a news story about a woman dying of cancer and I laughed

and now I'm sat here trying to turn it in to a kids story

I'm either A extremely bored, B extremely childish, or C both. (probably the latter)

well all I've done today is drink soda, so it's not like my life is going places..