Feeling some dread

Monday I have to go for my second Colonoscopy. I suppose it is better this time than last time. I know what to expect... but still... it is not fun. When I made the appointment I forgot it was on the day after easter. That means, if I forgot something I won't be able to go to the store to get it. Stores closed.

Also I had to hire a service to drive me. I don't like going with a total stranger.

Just feeling some dread.

Also feeling some dread from the fact that like 19 things seem to be happening at the same time. Something good happened to me last week but in order to get it I have to do a whole bunch of things ... and no one seems to have a lot of answers (or is moving too fast)

Then my HVAC compressor seems to be breaking down and I called someone out last week and his answer was... yeh let me know if it gets worse. I hate that kind of thing because this week with preping for the colonosocpy I don't have time for the compressor to be broken. And the guy suggested it might be on its way out. It is only 10 years old. I fear this guy will just tell me to get a new one because he seems super lazy.

Then my boss got sick and I don't begrudge him resting but I think everything is going to get put over to next week and I was hoping that would remain free in case of complication from the colonoscopy.