A Lot is Happening

So, after not texting the dude i had been seeing for a week (and getting absolutely no text from him either), I texted him this week and told him I did not want to be in a relationship with him. His response was “that’s fine.” That hurt, but it is what it is. Something was very off about him, and the fact that he didn’t even care when I told him I was breaking it off is just further proof that we are not a good match. Anyway, I’m going to be super busy these next few months— I’m taking a jewelry course at a local community college and it is going to be epic. I’ve already had one class and the instructor is incredible; she has so much knowledge and experience, and it is very humbling to be taking her class. I’m also going to be working at my old job. I have mixed feelings about this, but honestly, I am more concerned about doing an amazing job in my class. My job will be important, but this class is my top priority.

My parents stayed with me this past weekend— I love them both, but i won’t lie… after a few days of them being here, my eye was starting to twitch lol. I’m grateful for them and their love and support, but honestly, I’m even more grateful for my friends out here. They are amazing— we build each other up and are always there for each other. Friends are the family you choose, as the cliche goes.

I think this busy schedule will be really good for my eating disorder, because I’m going to need to be really structured with everything— my schedule, my studio time, and obviously, what I bring to eat. My work schedule will be 6am-2:30pm, then I will have class twice a week from 6pm-8:45pm. So i will have to bring meals and what i bring is what there will be, if that makes sense. I’m not ordering out. And it will be what my therapist calls “intentional eating.” So hopefully that helps. Better than just eating whatever, whenever.

I admire your attitude and motivation. Having a busy schedule helps me a lot with my struggles. Hope you really enjoy your jewelry class!

Thank you— so far, we’ve made two pairs of copper earrings, and in the process we’ve learned how to use a jeweler’s saw, how to sand and file metal, how to texture with a chasing hammer, how to pierce metal, and how to create a patina. It is so cool!!!