You’ve Been Warned

This is going to be a totally pathetic self-pity post, but I suppose it’s better to get it out before I clock in to work. I’m exhausted and burnt out and I was on vacation only last week. I was so exhausted last night that I opted for convenience over what I should’ve done regarding dinner, and I feel like a terrible person for it. I don’t want to be at work today— we are slammed with work and so understaffed it’s not funny (my shift has only 3 full-time people now). I want to snuggle my kitty in the fetal position on my bed. I’m a fat, stupid, evil loser and I’m ****ing pissed off. End of self-pity rant.

Ouch! @indigo1015, you are being hard on yourself. I’m sorry to hear you’re feeling this way, and that life seems so bleak.

Being under pressure at work is awful, and it’s totally understandable that this is having a massive negative effect on you.

I often used to feel terrible after coming back from a vacation. The reality of work and pressure hitting home, after a short period away can be overwhelming.

I hope, as your week progresses, you can find small ways to ease your pain, and perhaps something to look forward to, even if that’s just cuddling your cat. It’s good that you have a cat to come home to. Your cat needs you, so stick with it, and keep going.

And, we’re all entitled to a self-pity rant now and then. Sometimes you just need to let all those frustrations out.

I don’t believe you’re a terrible person, you just feel terrible at the moment. There is always hope. Be kind to yourself. Sending hugs to you and your cat.

Jeff.

You're managing to go to work and pull your weight in this world. That merits you a pat on the back.

This is probably not the last job you'll ever have. Meanwhile, you're gaining experience. See about getting some additional training that might improve your options for employment. You can aspire to a more satisfying job . . . and that's attainable. Think about how you can make that happen.

Hi Rose— thank you for your reply; I have been at a crossroads for some time. I do not want to work as a pharmacy technician for any longer than i have to at this point, and frankly, I have worked in many different pharmacy environments, so I am aware of what works for me and what doesn’t. Actually, I’ve worked in pharmacy for ten years. I don’t plan on getting more training or accreditations in my field, because what I want to do is design and sell jewelry. I’ve taken a course at a local community college in metals and jewelry making, and I loved it. In addition to that, I’ve taken workshops in jewelry making, business, etc. The problem is that in this economy, starting a business for something like jewelry is tricky— because of prices for materials being what they have been, what people are willing to pay for nonessential items like jewelry, etc. That’s obviously an oversimplified explanation, but it’s a factor. It won’t stop me from doing it, but the point I’m making is that for the time being, I need a cash cow to support myself, and pharmacy is it. It’s not much of a cash cow, but I know the job, I know the drugs, I can do it blindfolded, etc. just to explain what is going on in greater depth 🙂

Thank you— we’re haulin’ *** at work for sure; all three shifts working together on Thursday managed to get over 4,600 prescriptions out the door. Obviously, it wasn’t just my shift, but the others are pretty skeleton too, although not as bad as we are.