[idontknow13]

When I first joined this forum I chose Idontknow as my username because I did not know anything anymore, especially did not know why I felt the way I felt. Well, three months later and I am basically at the same stage, I dont know...

Lately I have forced myself to do things to get better and although while I am doing them I do feel a bit better (I forget for a little while) it comes right back. I am so sad, so lonely, so down on myself, I really dont know how I will get better. I am seeing a therapist with whom I have a good connection but does it really help? I am not sure.

I have realized that I come here and post relatively the same thing everytime...sometimes different words, but basically the same thing....
Has it gotten better for anyone out here? I hope so because you are such a great group of people and I dont want anyone to feel the way I do

Thank you for reading me again, again and again

[bananasarecool]

I post the same stuff a lot too, and i've wondered the same thing. I've been in treatment for over six months now, and ive gotten worse.
however i know that its possible to - my aunt is going through her second depressive episode - but she had thirty years in which she was not depressed, and although the first episode was serious, it eventually went away. she described it as one day being on a walk and she could see everything so clearly, and could understand that it was beautiful and worthwhile and that life, in itself is more than worth it.
depression steals your hope, your happiness, your life - but i know that its possible to get it all back. and its good that you can still do what you can - youre strong and you CAN get through this.
the best of luck,
x

[susan888]

(((IDK)))

I have been dealing with depression since I was a child...I'm 45 now...I take my meds and a lot of the time I am OK...Sometimes...I'm not. I think this is how this disease works. I'm so glad you have a T.

When you are in the darkness..just try to remember that it won't last forever and you will wake up one morning and feel better for a while..maybe for good.

I hope you will be one of the lucky one's who's depression does go away and doesn't return! It's good that you are addressing it now rather than letting it linger for years.

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((( Idontknow )))))))))))))))))

I have been in therapy for almost 3 years and the best way to explain progress is it's like a roller coaster with it's ups and downs but T says and I believe that as long as you keep trying you never go back to your lowest of lows. But it should be added that therapy takes time, it sounds like you are putting a lot of effort towards your recovery which is good my advice is to keep trying eventually things will get better or at least I hope they will for both of us.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by idontknow13

When I first joined this forum I chose Idontknow as my username because I did not know anything anymore, especially did not know why I felt the way I felt. Well, three months later and I am basically at the same stage, I dont know...

Lately I have forced myself to do things to get better and although while I am doing them I do feel a bit better (I forget for a little while) it comes right back. I am so sad, so lonely, so down on myself, I really dont know how I will get better. I am seeing a therapist with whom I have a good connection but does it really help? I am not sure.

I have realized that I come here and post relatively the same thing everytime...sometimes different words, but basically the same thing....
Has it gotten better for anyone out here? I hope so because you are such a great group of people and I dont want anyone to feel the way I do

Thank you for reading me again, again and again

((((idontknow13)))) I ask myself the same things. When does it get better? Why do I feel like this? How long will it last? Where is happiness? Why don't I want to do anything? What is wrong with me? I too would like to hear if anyone is doing better and how they got better.

[scotlandskye]

((((((idon'tknow)))))

I've suffered from depresson or found out that is what it was about 12 years ago. At that point I was at my low. I hit rock buttom. I'm lucky to be here I guess you could say. I went to therapy stayed on my meds. I saw a T' for about a year or two. Then I stopped going. It did help. I was able to stay "normal" for about 11 years, and now my depression is back and it seems like full force. I find myself asking the same questions that you are aksing your self! I"m asking myself if it is worth going to T again or can I do this all over again....I don't think I have it in me but everyone says I do...

It will get better and I know it doesn't seem like it at times and it seems like never ending battle and it will be as much as I hate to say that. But if you have good connection with your T keep going. Remember you are strong and you CAN get through this!!

[Amazonmom]

Nobody will get tired of your struggle with depression....we all have our own. That's why I like PC so much. I got here 5 months ago and had no clue I would still be here either.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((idontknow13)))))

Sorry you are feeling so depressed and low. I wish I could take it for awhile. Depression comes and goes and it takes. It lies to us and tells us things that are not true. I too know the questions you are asking and understand what you are saying. I am always afraid when I post that I say the same things over and over. But it is okay because that is what you feel and what you need to say. We are here to support you and listen, never judge or ridicule.

You can post whatever you feel and know that you are not alone nor are you saying anything wrong. Sometimes I say the same things but only in different words. It is what I feel and need to say at the time. Getting out what you feel is important and can help you to express what you may otherwise not be able to say.

For awhile there, I was finding some peace and even some happiness until something happened a few weeks ago. But working and trying, I found that it can get better with time. We slip back at times but as long as we are willing to reach out again and get the support we need from safe people like PC, and your t, things can get better.

Please remember that no matter what--you are worth it and important. Everyday we make another day--we are not letting our abusers win. We are survivors and we have our life to prove that. I shouldn't be here today but I keep reaching out and trying. I know you can too. You are stronger than you think.

You always support others and have insite to what others say. I thank you for trusting us to tell us how you feel. That in itself takes a lot of strength and courage. Keep holding on and know we are here to walk with you through this time. You are worth it and we care.

dps

[Naturefreak]

(((idontknow)))

I don't know how much longer this will last.
I don't know if it will ever end.
I don't know where to begin and when I do , I begin all over again.
I don't know if the meds are working because I still feel depressed.
I don't know how I found this site but I am happy I did.
I don't know how to keep the ball rolling without it rolling back over me.
I don't know how I managed to survive this long with depression.
I don't know any friends who have depression other than here.
I don't know why I feel good for a couple of hours and then horrible the
next.
I don't know what to concentrate more on , therapy , medication ,
spirituality , exercise , meditation , diet , being social . etc. etc.
I don't know , I don't know , I don't know .....
What I do know is DEPRESSION SUCKS.
I hope all of us beat this ................
I BELIEVE WE WILL when ? idontknow