[bananasarecool]

so my boyfriend came over today...
spending time with people... oh fun.
but i wanted to see him.

and it was all kinda getting on ok, i was sorta trying to hold it all back and remain composed...
... and then i went quiet and kinda still..
and i just burst into tears.

and he thought that it was his fault. so he got upset. he cried, which is odd because i havent ever seen him do that before.
obviously i didnt say what i wanted to... but i want out. not of that relationship, of EVERYTHING. i dont want to take it anymore.
... so...yeah... i managed to make yet another person - the one that i seem to care most about - CRY.

........................................... and he didnt get that it wasnt his fault.

so for the last few hours i've been laughing and smiling and trying to make out that im "ok". i probably overdid it but id rat

note to self; dont cry in front of ANYONE.

god i hate being so pathetic ;/

x

[Rohag]

Bananas, as much as you can, be kind to yourself. This just happened today, and it may be too soon to judge the incident's real effect on you, your b/f and your relationship.

Does the situation allow for you to tell him what you've told us? Are you afraid of his reaction if you do? If he became upset-sad rather than upset-angry, that could easily mean he cares a lot.

Regardless, your feelings and pain are real to us and special. They cannot diminish you here.

[turquoisesea]

hun I just wanted to say that I've made my bf cry before. It's a natural thing. Of course I'm not happy about doing that but at some point if you're close to someone and actually open with them you are going to hurt them somehow, some way. What you have to do now is realize that it's ok this happened, and to make sure he understands the situation as you saw it.

It's ok to cry in front of people *I can only do so in front of my bf, no one else*

Don't give up just because of a few tears

[Berries]

(((((((((((bananasarecool)))))))))))

Sometimes crying in front of someone is honoring them. It says, I trust you with my pain. And if that person crys too, it means they care deeply for you and it can be a beautiful moment between two people.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Berries

(((((((((((bananasarecool)))))))))))

Sometimes crying in front of someone is honoring them. It says, I trust you with my pain. And if that person crys too, it means they care deeply for you and it can be a beautiful moment between two people.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((bananasarecool))))

I hear you about crying in front of someone, and feeling afraid that it will hurt them. But tears are cleansing and sometimes okay to let go. Holding them in is not good. You did nothing wrong with crying----and shutting down and pretending everything was okay hurt you. Having a open honest relationship is being able to be yourself no matter what. I agree with Berries that it can bring you closer to someone as you are showing you trust them with your pain. Know we are here for you and care very much. Be kind to yourself.

dps