[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

i need help or its gonna happen.....

please hold on here and post again to me........i care about what happens to you and will stay online and i'll get some more friends to listen..........xoxox pat

talk to me.......tell me why you're feeling as you are........pat

[gardenergirl]

Can you tell us what's going on? We're here for you.

gg

Amy, we're here and if you feel like talking, we'll listen to you and try our best to help you figure out things.....you can even send us a private message if you want.......we're just here to help. pat

[gardenergirl]

I agree with Ozzie, if you are feeling unsafe please call someone to be with you, call 911 or go to an ER. You can talk to us, too, but if you are in immediate danger, please take care of yourself. We want to see you keep posting.

((((Amy)))))
gg

that's certainly a good idea to go to ER, if you are feeling unsafe now.....((((((((((amy))))))))

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((amy))))))))))))))

Sweety, if you need help, call 911 or go to your nearest ER. We are here for you. OK. We care for you.

[Raynaadi]

we're still here to talk hon....how are you feeling? please post? please PM any of one us if you don't want to post ok?

we're here!

rayna

[gardenergirl]

Amy,
Hope you got the help you were asking for.

gg

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

I dont know, i mean so much s hit runnin through my head i have no one in my life to turn to, i aint callin 911 bc i dont really want to go to the hospital, im hiding all my feelings from everyone around me, im good at that, no one around me knows im depressed, i really bad wanted to end it all yesterday but i didnt, and i dont want to go get help, i feel this is something i have to deal with myself but i dont know how to and if i go to the hospital everyone will just think im wierd for going there bc the reasons i want to yea is wierd reasons, s hit ppl can get over but i cant im wierd like that...

i'm glad you checked back in. we were all very concerned for your safety.......pat

[dayzee9]

((((((((((((((((((Hello! )))))))))))))

You are not "weird like that" It means you have a depressive episode going on & for most people when they go to the ER/hospital doctors unfortunetely have the habit of rolling their eyeballs back into their sockets & you FEEL like they just took an ink stamp that says "psych case" & smacked you straight on the forehead w/ it. You sit in a room while nurses & doctors mill around, looking at you like you're from another planet.................however, if you can just sweat it through that part & get to the (I hate to say the word) psych ward.......there are people there who treat you like an equal person who's going thru a tough time and they in turn try to give you what you need!

I realize it AIN'T that easy....I'm a psych nurse.....admitted at my own place of work.......think I want to go anywhere for help w/ that in my permanent health record? That's a BIGGER rubber stamp they hit you with. But here I am, I live across the street from the ER...I can be suicidal as .....heck......and I won't go!!!

You say you keep everything inside...so do I but I do try to write it down in my journals from going totally mad! You may not realize it yet, BUT my girl, you have taken that first step just by posting here!!!

All you have to say is "HELP!!! I NEED IDEAS!

You just might se a little light in your near future!

Chew on it for awhile, or feel free to PM me; I'm open darn near 24/7 (regardless whether my beloved gets P.Oed at me for it!)

(((((((((((((( DAYZEE9))))))))))))))))))))))))

so glad to hear from you.....take care....

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Puzzle --

Thank you for checking back in to let us know how you are doing.

You are not weird for having these feelings -- as the very existence of this forum and all of us who post here shows.

Posting here is a brave and positive first step.

I don't think that you have to check into an ER. There are other options. I have been depressed, sometimes suicidally so, since at least the age of 16. I've never checked in for in-patient care.

People see therapists/counselors today for many reasons -- from "finding themselves" to improving family and work relationships to handling issues such as but not limited to depression, anorexia/bulemia, self-injury and all the other topics listed on at Psych Central. There is still stigma, especially among the ignorant (which too often includes our families). And I'm not one to trumpet my mental health affairs in the workplace unless I absolutely have to. But then, I'm not one to trumpet too many personal details about anything in the workplace.

Would you consider out-patient counseling for a while?

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

Im still confused a little... I am still in love with one of my ex bfs and i was ballin the other day bc my friend debbie asked him if he loved me and he said yes he thinks.. thats bogus and today i got two letters from my ex Adam, who is in jail right now.. so yea im not here all the way

you sound better than you did a few days ago. i'm glad. how old are you?

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

Yea i am a little better... kinda sorta im gettin there...... im 16

are you in highschool? i'm assuming that you are....how are your parents? do you talk to them? or no? are you smoking pot or drinking any? i'm giving you the third degree so that i can learn a little more about what might help you....pat

another question.......is the BF still in jail and why did he get put in? p

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

yes im still in high school.. no i dont talk to my parents about anything.. and i used to smoke pot n drink and it sounds like a good idea right now but i cant

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

yea hes still in jail and hes not my bf anymore i broke up with him n MIGHT take him back when he gets out... well he was charged with illegal consumption of alcohol and resisting a police officer... he was taking pills and he stopped breathing so someone called he cops n he was drinking and he snapped out on the cop... hes an idiot

is he close to your age? can you tell your parents that you'd like to be in therapy??? what state do you live in? you might be able to find a counseling center that is run by the state or county.......xoxo pat

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

Adam is 17, he just turned 17 though... im in counseling

how is the counseling going? do you like the T? (therapist) i'm really glad that you came back and posted. i was worried about you..