[justfloating]

Have you ever felt like your head is stuffed full of thoughts and feelings, but they may as well be in a foreign language since you can't figure out what they mean anyways? I feel full ... I don't know how to explain it better than that, mostly because I don't have the words for it right now. I don't have the words to journal but if I don't journal how am I going to get the feelings out and if I don't get the feelings out how am I going to get to bed and if I don't get to bed how am I supposed to have the energy to drag myself through tomorrow???



I hate it when I don't have words. I operate in words. There is a constant narrative going on in my head and if I don't get some of it down on paper, eventually I run myself ragged just by thinking. I don't know why I am the way I am, and for all the pain it causes me to be that way and not to have any other outlets because my mind just doesn't work like that, I wouldn't give it up for the world because I love to write. It's the best coping mechanism I have, and without it I feel like I'm just filling up with my depression and I can't get it out. I'm going to overflow. Or maybe explode. Or maybe drown. I don't know, because I don't have the words for that feeling either.

[Naturefreak]

(((justfloating)))

I wish I had the words to make you feel much better .
I think you should get some much needed rest and continue your writing
tomorrow. We will be here for you as always .
Thanks again for all your support

[Sabrina]

I too, wish I had words that could instantly comfort you. But I can only say that I understand. It often feels as though I have 20 different radio stations going on in my head at the same time.

[googley]

I feel the same way! Too many things in my head. All going around in circles.
I hope you can get some of it out on paper (or computer) soon.

[Knitnut]

Wondering why you are how you are. My head would be too full too. I don't know that I will ever truly understand why I am how I am, but putting that thought aside and learning to just live is more important to me.

Interesting that my therapist knows snippets of my past. It is all he needs to know, a climps, since his job is to understand who I am in the present and help to to maneuver through my life going forward, a person in paind. Looking back does not always help one move forward.

Even if you journal what you have written here, it is helpful, as I am sure typing the words to start this thread felt good. To let someone hear and know how you feel at this moment in time is good. A journal is not just an extension of oneself it is a friend to whom you can talk and who will listen, just as we do on this forum.

Let you journal be your friend too. Let go of the heaviness in your mind.

[idontknow13]

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[turquoisesea]

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[darkpurplesecrets]

((((justfloating))))

I hear you and I fully understand what you are saying. Words are my only way out and the only thing that was not taken from me. They are who I am and they hold everything I feel. So many times I cannot find the words to say or they won't come, or they are coming so fast that I cannot get them all down.

Writing is a great tool and it is a way to get out what otherwise would stay within forever. Sometimes just starting to write whatever comes starts the words for me. Before long I look back and there is a whole page----black on white----full. Sometimes it makes sense and sometimes it is just words. But it is my words none the less.

At times when my head is so full that I am overwhelmed with all that is within----I just have to start somewhere. One word at a time. There are times I need to say something so bad and I feel that nothing is coming out, but I write anyways and before I know it----I am writing what needs to be said.

I do understand what you are feeling and saying. Just hang in there and keep writing. It will come and it will say what you need it to say. Know we are here for you always.

dps

[depressedalaskan]

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