Nowhere To Go, No-one To Turn To...

Is she considering leaving him???

Yes, she's considered it. It's hard for her, I know it is. She really doesn't know what to do tbh. I'm guiding her as much as possible and while it's not a pressure on me, it's more of a pleasure for me to at least try to help her, but moreso when she accepts and appreciates the help. It's nice to be appreciated once in a while.

I just wish it could be easier, you know? I wish she didn't get half the s--t she does. It just.. Ugh. I hate seeing someone in so much pain. Especially when they see me practically everyday now. I mean, she'll be going home soon, but I'll still worry my arse off... You all know what I'm like!

I feel so down today and I know that it's because of my stupidity last night, but I'll explain that in PM's if you want to know. I'm tired, didn't sleep last night and just feel icky. Sorry

I know I dont know everything that has happened in your life babe but you have my number.... I am here for you 24/7 even if you just want to say hi or just hear me talk s**t about kavos lol...... You know no matter what you have a friend in me.... Some of the things you have been though so have I... And feel lucky I dont normal tell people what Ive been though LOL .... But I love you no matter what.... I neeed you if no one else dose!!! And thats the truth!! I will always be here for you and will always listen and thats a promise!!!

Love you
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Thanks, Didi.

I'm so glad you joined this forum because of me!! It makes me happy.

I know you're only a text or phonecall away and I'll be getting free calls to you soon, so I'll try calling you when I feel down. Sorry about the other night, I did feel horribly crap and was NOT enjoying my time on Earth tbh. Everything just went *splat* on my head and I crumbled. You know what it's like.

You know where I am if you need me too, because I know you struggle too sometimes. I'll try giving you a text tonight or something. You talking "s--t" actually helps you know, because you make me laugh!

I'm just.. Ugh. I'm really really struggling right now. I'm helping someone else and while it's not putting pressure on me at all, I'm angry, extremely, very, horribly angry and I can't stand it. Grrr. Could seriously punch someone again. I worry a lot about others, I know. But I just can't help it

I just need a friend around to help me, even just a hug, a comforting, supporting hug will help

Here are some comforting, supporting hugs for you, (((((TPND)))))

((((ThePainNeverDies))))

(((((TPND)))))) How's the health, hon? I hope you've been able to get some sleep and let yourself recover a little. You've had a rough stretch here.

(((((((((((TPND))))))))))))))))))))))))

hope things are better wiht you

Im glad that girl has gone babe..... She was not helping you...... Im still up for chatting to you on the phone if you want ..... I dont mind... I dont do anything else with my pathetic life lol...... Dont ever forget tha I love you !! And Need you!!

Love you loads
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thanks everyone for the hugs. They've made my day a million times better

Hee I love you too Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Things are a little better although I had to do a drugs and alcohol youth course yesterday with a horrid migraine, feeling tired and in a foul mood. I was good at debating though! People liked me there I'm happy enough.

Got really down in my new flat the other day for some reason so yeah, don't quite know why tbh, but ahhhh well. Just lack of sleep I guess. I'm finding it hard to sleep but hey ho. I'll figure something out!

Hope everyone's okay and not worrying too much

So glad you are feeling better on the whole (((TPND))) - you'll have those ho-hum days now and then - like you said, probably lack of sleep - take a warm bath, dim the lights, and watch a tape or DVD - it's the commercials that really annoy me and keep me from getting into sleep mode - break the mood and concentration. Please keep us informed as to how you are doing.

Well... I went to the drs today and have been put on Lorazepam again because she's worried about my lack of sleep and how just 3 hours is actually good for me

I've struggled over the last few days and I've done some things that I know really aren't clever at all, but... If you wanna know about that PM me. I just don't feel like talking about it today... I don't feel well

I just want to cry. Collapse in someone's arms and cry. My favourite teacher from seconday school saw me today and she rushed over with a huge smile on her face and gave me a really comforting, warm hug and I said to Connor "Oooh her hugs make me feel so warm and fuzzy inside! " and it's true, they do... But she said she'd seen the article in the paper about the fire and stuff and asked about it and I just waved it off as though it's nothing and she asked how I am, looked down at my left arm and then had to go because the phone rang for her. She started training to be a counsellor long ago but stopped because it was too intense for her, but she only looked at my scars because she cares and she wants to know that I'm okay. We're going to meet up again soon and have a proper heart to heart about it and she's said she's going to help me as much as possible.. Which makes me feel better.

I just wish everything bad would disappear, just for one day

(((((TPND))))) I'm so glad you are going to have another person IRL to provide support and genuine comfort for you. Little by little, day by day, I think things are going to steadily improve for you.

I'm glad about this too, just a little nervous about it. I have just come back from the hospital after collapsing a few times from a bad knee. I have now been given exercises to do and painkillers. So, 3 times a day I will be hanging a can of beans in a plastic bag, off my feet and will have to lift and drop them slowly 20 times each time I do it! Yay.

I'm not well. I've not been well all week. My stomach has played hell with me and I keep having to run off to be sick

Wish I could just stay in bed alllll day.