[lonelyperson92]

I don't understand why...
I can't seem to communicate with other normal people normally,
I can't share my deepest feelings to anyone because they wouldn't understand me
It seems so hard to find a friend that would listen and pays attention to what you are saying with real interest.
I just feel lost to the mass, invisible to the society and to even my family.
It hurts so bad to just be the black sheep of the family..
I really sometime wish to go away somewhere... where nobody would find me..
I really hate my life !

[Jmall]

Well, you're not alone if that's any help. I feel identical to that. I tried once to share with some close friends what I was going through... like on those commercials where they say they have Autism, or say they are depressed and their friends help them... only my friends said I was a liar, and that I never showed signs of this before, and that my need of reassurance was annoying.

[lonegael]

((((((lonely person))))))) You can talk to us, first. I think you'll find that a lot of people here understand what you are going through. A lot of people don't pay attention because they don't always understand what is going on. Once they do, those who care DO listen better. Sometimes we can be a little vague about what we need, because we are so afraid we'll get disappointed, and then others simply don't read between the lines and get it. Hang in there and take courage! You are hardly alone!

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by lonelyperson92

It hurts so bad to just be the black sheep of the family..

Looking over one of your posts in another forum here, you are

• bothered by the immaturity of students in your school,
• interested and attentive in your studies,
• concerned for the respect accorded to teachers, and
• read novels (apparently for recreation).

And you are the "black sheep" of your family?!

Although I suspect you will eventually find others with whom you can relate on a deep level, your current place in the world is but sparsely populated with such individuals. To increase the odds you will find suitable friends, you might consider working to build self-acceptance and self-confidence, both of which are related to the discovery of what you really value.

I wish you successful adventuring, Lonelyperson!

[VickiesPath]

I always had friends who were approximately 3-4 years ahead of me in school for precisely the reasons Rohag quoted (from you). You can seek out new friends. You don't have to keep immature friends. Just because you are maturing at a different rate than they are doesn't make what you express invalid. I say, move on.

Seek out other groups. I always had the advantage that there was a small liberal arts college in my home town. I always hung out with the artsy people.

Do you have such resources?

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( lonelyperson )))))))))))))))))

[idontknow13]

(((((lonelyperson)))))

[lonelyperson92]

Thank you everyone for such wonderful comments!
(((((((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

It's just that I feel so pathetic; I could do my schoolwork well, draw better artworks and yet, I barely could make friends. I know some people that barely have a decent education could make so much just by being witty and charismatic.

My sister thinks that I'm retarded because I couldn't communicate with other people efficiently. In these days, she couldn't bare my presence....Just how do I deal with this? I don't want to talk to her because each time I do, she doesn't really listen and underestimates me.

[lonegael]

(((((lonelyperson)))))! give your sister some time. It sounds like both of you are still quite young, and often, people who haven't lived through a bit of pain in life don't have a clue when others have troubles. Such people will often distance themselves as far as they can from any they perceive as a "downer". she's blaming you probably because she resents feeling bad for you, but that is absolutely not your fault. If it's true, then she needs to grow up and stop blaming others for her feelings.
It's hurtful, but maybe backing off and leaving her alone will help both of you. It sounds like being with her and her attitude is really a downer for you. Don't hate yourself for other's reactions, we can't all be world class communicators. Do you do art? by the way?

[Lboogieg]

You know what, I completely understand what you're going through. I can't stand talking to people and I have no idea why. People I don't know, anyway. My friends and family are fine, but I'm hiding from them too. You said you long for someone who will listen and pay attention. We will! We all want someone to be ourselves in front of, someone who'll find that part of us hidden away. I'm here for you, and you don't have to hide from us.

[trevorzero]

Yes, it can be very hard to find a friend, even for those lucky people who are not facing mental health issues. But it is a fight that is worth fighting.

Every morning, you can dedicate yourself to the idea that this might be the day that you make progress in achieving the wonderful relationship that you are seeking. Put one foot in front of the other and you will get there.

[lonelyperson92]

Thanks everyone I really couldn't have gone through this without your support !! The problem is that my sisters is 6 years older than me(22 years old) and she keeps sighing whenever she sees me... and that just lower my self-esteem... and I can't avoid her because we share the same room.
I do water color and comics ...

[lonegael]

You know, I lot of people I know who are very creative have a hard time with communicating to others conventionally. It's almost as if the natural form of expression for such people is not really verbal and not really along the same lines that other people always understand. It can be a royal pain. Do you expressyourself much in painting instead? I assume you don't stop at rainbows and castles and stuff

Your sister is trying to be superior by acting like a bore around you, and that says more about her than it does about you. That's not just words. Such people are really hard to work with, be friends with, have as neighborss or relatives. Just becausse she has fantasies of being beter than you doesn't mean that it is true. A bit of growing up for big sister is in order. Thanks for answering!

[zara lou]

i know how ya feeling i feel so alone and being on my own with no family is hard if it was not for my kids keeping me going i dont know what i would do without themerstand undver neuse they. it doesnt even matter in my mind i hate people if they had it thybecause they ont understand i mean they try but they never get me and even call me silly and pull yourself together ose days againthey wouldnt be saying it sorry im having one of those days again