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Old May 11, 2005, 11:45 PM
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...really I am...

Along with the dental mess up...

I worked all evening on a spreadsheet lately... and sent it for a person's use and "approval" and even sent it in 3 different formats to my only friend (and sent it to myself to view and be sure it was right.) And it all came out Great!

So I sent it out in a blast. And a real picky guy who USUALLY does their spreadsheets nit picked it apart... but what he returned to me was NOT what I had sent in a blast. I've spent another several hours trying to find the right ss or worksheet or template (see, I saved it many ways and in many places cuz when I become stressed computers don't work right around me.)... so I just now decided I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHAT WENT WRONG in fact, I can't figure out that anything went wrong! So I emailed him the ss that the person who used it and sent me info back on it... and asked the nit picker to let me know if that's what he was referring to!

I hate this... i've let it ruin my evening... with worry and depression and more stress because I couldn't figure it out.

Like the whole world can ... you know.

I missed church tonight.. well class and concert practice... just couldn't drag out. Can't let others see me like this... they think I 'm such a "together" person/professional. Yeah, like if I was still that wouldn't I be WORKING and not medically retired???

See how one negative thought runs to another? This is depression folks... and recognizing it doesn't do me any good...suppose it will in the "future?"

I could take a flying leap... heard on the news how a woman accidently fell out of a 9th story window...and lived. She landed on one of those canvas awnings... now THAT would be my luck. Canvas shelter that disabled me, could be one that keeps me from UNdisabling me... never mind.

Hey em... does that hotline number work yet? I'm trying not to sink farther...
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Old May 12, 2005, 09:24 AM
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How are you today? I hope you are feeling a bit better!

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Old May 13, 2005, 06:39 PM
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Old May 16, 2005, 10:29 AM
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so sorry you are having a rough time. You are in my thoughts.
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Sorry hun. I know that feeling well. PM me if you wanna talk about anything.

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Old May 17, 2005, 08:08 PM
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TKs (((hugs))) I keep bouncing off the bottom...never high enough to gasp some air it seems...
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Old May 18, 2005, 04:30 PM
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I'm doing. Forcing myself.. to like, be here for one thing... keep mind off self, think of others... try not to do more harm than good in my efforts...

.... and feeling like I keep slipping down one notch every so often....

...holding on... next week my friend is going with me (and my service dog and a motorized wheelchair) and use that Disney trip I won in ..Jan? Feb? ... and that will be tasking but it will be just as much good from it too...

.... and then try not to think about the work that needs to be done when I return... sigh... trying not to think about that now...

I have reasons to feel ok. I can't feel them. I can only feel sad.

Thanks for understanding y'all.
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Old May 19, 2005, 01:18 PM
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Just out of curiousity, have you been Dxed w/ having a Major Depressive Disorder? Those are like mine...it's a chemical imbalance in the brain that, regardless of anti-depressant therapy (which you must continue to take) you get hit w/ episodes that seem to hit you out of the clear blue sky!
It's like having an anchor tied to your leg & regardless of what you do, you keep sinking (Ever see the movie,"The Abyss"? Like sinking to the bottom....but no ET's to befriend you)

Talk to your PsyDoc! Ask him about different mdications or adjustments.......Man, I can relate to that feeling so well, Sky I'm trying not to sink farther... I am sorry that you are hurting so, I guess all I can say is "HANG ON!" I'm trying not to sink farther... We are all here for you!
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I'm trying not to sink farther... I'm trying not to sink farther... I'm trying not to sink farther...DAYZEE9
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