[gingerkat]

I checked myself into the hospital last week for four days. I attended all the group therapy sessions and did very well. I couldn't wait to get home and sleep in my own bed and eat my own food.

I'm home now and still feel very depressed. Not depressed enough to swallow pills again, but very low. I'm wondering why I feel this way? When I was in the facility, I was happy and felt so good, so why do I feel depressed now?

anyone?

did they change you medication - they should off.... you kind'a should have stayed until the correct med. took you out of the depression.

So tell your Dr these meds are not working

K

[gingerkat]

Just lowered my dosage a little, but that is really the only change. I see the doctor tomorrow, but I'm kind of afraid to admit how I feel. I don't want to end up a "5150" and be forced to stay as long as they want me. I'm scared, depressed and very nervous.

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by gingerkat

I checked myself into the hospital last week for four days. I attended all the group therapy sessions and did very well. I couldn't wait to get home and sleep in my own bed and eat my own food.

I'm home now and still feel very depressed. Not depressed enough to swallow pills again, but very low. I'm wondering why I feel this way? When I was in the facility, I was happy and felt so good, so why do I feel depressed now?

anyone?

Maybe being around people in group therapy was a help.
Are you all alone at home?

[gingerkat]

Originally Posted by Babysteps

Maybe being around people in group therapy was a help.
Are you all alone at home?

yes, most of the day I'm by myself

[alittlehoshime]

((((((((gingerkat))))))))))) hang out with us more inhere then loneliness is one of the caused . Anything could contribute and trigger to depression too its just comes and goes without any efforts. Just hang in there Just as I am doin so right now k

[Rohag]

Good Day, Gingerkat!

Originally Posted by gingerkat

I'm wondering why I feel this way? When I was in the facility, I was happy and felt so good, so why do I feel depressed now?

You've already received some possible answers: medication, socialization (or lack thereof), the nature of depression itself.

Stepping aside from directly attempting to answer your question, I believe now is an excellent time for you to practice close self-observation. Attempt to scrutinize everything about your moods, feelings, symptoms, environments. What do you feel when, where, and how? Where are you and what's going on when you feel worse, when you feel better? Record your observations if you have the energy for it. Report it to your doctor.

Note: I've just given you advice that I have trouble implementing. I have done all the above, but it takes me months and years.

Wishing you lighter moods...

I've come out the hospital feeling not really ready to be out before. In fact, I've gone back in two weeks after being discharged the first time. Watch yourself. Do you have a therapist? Let them know exactly what you are feeling. This is a time to be completely honest with yourself and others.

The thing about the hospital is that everything is done for us. We don't have to make any decisions. They are made for us. It's stressful to return to real life.

[turquoisesea]

I agree with Rohag. I also think you should reach out to your doctor. Don't be ashamed of how you feel, he's there to help you. Right now, you're reaching out for help and that's GOOD.

Is there anyone you can meet up with every so often for socialization? That might be very important.

[sashasiegel]

Originally Posted by Babysteps

Maybe being around people in group therapy was a help.
Are you all alone at home?

this. and also your w people who are liek you and are on the same page as you and how you feel so its comforting to have "friends" in there to talk to and such

[lonegael]

Everyone has given such great advice that I can only ad one thing. even if you go into the hospital for an operation, you still go home with a lot of healing to do. As people have said, getting int touch with your doctor, maybbe a therapist, and seeing about breaking your isolation are all good things to do to make sure you don't lose any of the progress you might have made. Hope the sun starts shining for you, gingercat. Hugs and let the healing commence

[gingerkat]

My therapist is on vacation and then I go on vacation. I left him a message begging him to find a "hole" in his schedule for me before I leave. Otherwise it will have been 2 months since I've seen him. I don't want to start with a new therapist.

I did see my shrink today and I told him how I was feeling. I first told him about how the mental clinic was not therapeutic and that he should not use that facility again. He said the key is not to stay alone and try to socialize more. It's going to be hard since I've alienated many of my friends I'll keep going to group therapy and hope for the best.

This site is so great. I'm thankful for all the wonderful people here.

ginger