 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Dec 01, 2009, 07:19 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
For about 2 years (I last did it quite a while ago now) I used to be in small community of flight simulation enthusiasts. It was all online but we used a thing called Teamspeak to communicate and would fly in a server on Microsoft Flight Simulator.
We were all very freindly, and some of the runners of it actually had proper job titles, like CEO and Administrator etc... Well anyway, we were all good. I was on particularly good terms with Paul Taylor - the owner (and CEO) of Gatwick Virtual Airport (http://www.gatwick-atc.com/ - shut down now) and I would tell him small bits like how I was bullied at school (never in depth) and he was a real genuinely nice bloke. I got sent this by a freind on MSN today (I met him through GVA 9 Gatwick Virutal Airport (renamed to Gatwick Virtual ATC) : http://www.kent.police.uk/News/Lates...sentenced.html I feel really shocked, and physically sick. I'm 15, and when I joined I was 13. He's seen pictures of me at that age and below. Who knows if he had any of me in his collection. He also knew my address. Blah. It makes me want to be sick just writing this, and when I think of it, probably because im so shocked. I just do not know how to react. I also have another worry, my dad has been waking up with specs of blood on his pillow. He went to see the doctor and the sent him to hospital for some reason. My dad wont tell me anything and when I ask him about it he goes quiet. All he will tell me is that he's been to hospital a few times - and that was only when i asked. He has also been feeling really rough and on the news someone had exactly the same - blood specs on her pillow. She went to see the doctor and a while later, got diagnosed with lung cancer. I am really worried for him. Tears come to my eyes when i think about it. I know everyone will think im just thinking the worse, but everything's pointing to this!!! I havent self harmed for two months, I'm worried that I might not get to the third. Next week I am going to ask him straight up what the **** is going on ? Sorryfor the rant.
__________________
.
|
|
#2
Dec 01, 2009, 07:31 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
wow im sorry man... id be shocked and disgusted too, anyone would be i think
and i hope your dad will be ok.. Keep us uptodate ok? Lucas
__________________
  
|
|
#3
Dec 01, 2009, 07:56 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
In_The_Darkness, I'm so sorry, shocked, and saddened.
 There's a personal side to this for me - one of my favourite teachers when I was about your age turned out to be a pedophile. I had no idea, no clue at all.Regarding your father, you are close to the threshold of adulthood; I hope Father levels with you about what's going on with him. My sincere best wishes for your father's health and your personal peace of mind. 
__________________
My dog  mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
|
|
#4
Dec 01, 2009, 07:57 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
(((((((In_The_Darkness))))))))
  Have a TON of hugs, and then have some more. I would be as shocked and disgusted as you. I'm so sorry about your dad. Of course you're worried, I would be too! But please don't let your fears lead you back to self harm... No matter what's going on with your dad, I'm sure that what he needs most right now is for you to do what you can to take care of yourself. Is there anyone you can talk to, like a therapist or a counsellor, who might be able to help you get through this? Sending even more hugs.
__________________
Rebecca "If you're going through hell -- keep going." - Winston Churchill It's better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. - Elizabeth Gilbert Bring on the wonder, we got it all wrong, we pushed you down deep in our souls, so hang on. Bring on the wonder, bring on the song, I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long. - Susan Enan http://igetupagain.wordpress.com/ |
|
#5
Dec 01, 2009, 11:33 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Hello, In The Darkness. Please continue to post so we know how you are doing. Good luck.
|
|
#6
Dec 02, 2009, 06:29 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Lol i am ok if I try to not think about it. If I do get down I just listen to some Queen!
 Thanks for your replies. Most kind of you! <3 xx
__________________
.
|
|
#7
Dec 02, 2009, 08:14 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
And now I start crying. I cant sleep because I cant stop worrying. What the **** am I supposed to do ?! I cant imagine life without him! :'(
__________________
.
|
|
#8
Dec 02, 2009, 08:30 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
((( In_The_Darkness! ))) Peace to you.
__________________
My dog mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
|
|
#9
Dec 02, 2009, 08:43 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I feel so helpless. And with helplessness comes the urge to self harm. And I did, I burnt myself. Two months free ? Not anymore!
__________________
.
|
|
#10
Dec 02, 2009, 08:55 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
Do you have any close friends that you can contact to get you through the rough patch? You should write down your anger and frustration on paper (poetry, journal, etc)...it could very well be beneficial for you. One day at a time----Start fresh with no more SI (count days if it helps you)
__________________
_________________________ On The Long Road To Recovery........ When I Say "I'm Okay". I Want Someone To Look Me In The Eyes And Say "Tell Me The Truth". |
|
#11
Dec 02, 2009, 09:12 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
.
|
|
#12
Dec 02, 2009, 09:21 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
_________________________ On The Long Road To Recovery........ When I Say "I'm Okay". I Want Someone To Look Me In The Eyes And Say "Tell Me The Truth". |
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
