I can't get any worse!

I been depressed for the past 2 years and I don't seem to be getting any better. My life is totally messed up. I have no direction. I'm not in college, not working, or have a social life at all. I wish I could go back two years ago, at 18, I would have appreciated high school years much more, now that I know what the future would bring.

I've never pictured myself like this. Ending up in my mother shoes, although she got over it. I don't see myself doing the same. Maybe it's because I don't have any motivation like children depending on me, like we depended on her.

I'm probably at the lowest point I ever been in my life and I don't see me winning this battle.

what makes things worse is my mother borrowed a gun for protection against her live-in boyfriend and she hides it in my closet. She may not know how depressed I am because I haven't told her, but common sense should let her know something's wrong. A 20 year old sleeps all day, never leaves their room, with a history of past suicidal attempts, diagnosed as bipolar. I'm not saying I'm going to hurt myself. It just seems obvious to me that you don't have such temptations around somebody who is already depressed.

I would just ask if the gun could be moved. Maybe just tell her it bothers you being in there, if you aren't ready to tell her why it bothers you yet.

Wi, I'm right behind you.

Get that gun out of your room right now, Sharita! Like WI says, just tell your mom that it bothers you. And try to manage it so that you won't know where she puts it next.

Are you in therapy? There are usually some ways to get it through a city or county mental health department or a United Way agency.

Coming to Psych Central is a way good start, too! Welcome!

I agree with ozzie you have time to make you number one priority. You are lucky enough to have a parent support while you are out of work. I wish I had a chance like that. My depression has always been set off by not having friends or family who cared. Not having enough money to survive. I had to work 70 hours a week just to survive. So you should take this time to help yourself. Your only young once don't let your best years be spent sleeping all day. Go out take a walk around the block. Think about ways you can change how you are feeling. Good luck take care.

get your mother to move the gun, immediately!!!

you do have plenty of free time to work on yourself. please take this valuable gift and use it. do something that you are interested in for a week or two. you'll be surprised how things will go for you, if you stir around. pat

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