[teary_me]

im sitting here crying trying to talk to my brother who ive hardly spoken to in about 2 years and havent seen him since then either, i told him how i feel atm how i feel like i have no family an like noone cares i dont know what it is but tonight im finding it really REALLY hard. he told me im his lil sis an of course he cares and says i need to sort my **** out... i told him im trying an doing the best i can but he doesnt understand, he doesnt know how hard it is.. do they really think i want to be like this?? crying, self harming hating myself soo much i want to die??
im trying my hardest but its like its not good enough, nothings good enough....
i dont even know how i got into this state tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM OVA IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Naturefreak]

(((Teary me )))
Thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon.

[idontknow13]

((((((teary_me))))))

[lifelesstraveled]

((((teary me))))

[cantstopcrying]

Oh teary! I'm so sorry that you feel not even your family understands...actually sometimes they are the last to understand, if they ever do. I know it isn't the same, but please know you are not alone, we are here, there are so many of us here who have just sat and cried and felt so alone, so while we may not know exactly what you have been through or how you are feeling, we are with you and I know it hurts and you just want to feel better and want someone to understand and know you don't want to be "like this". You are a wonderful and caring person and I do hope that you know I care.

[Rohag]

((((((( Teary_me! )))))))

In all your pain and struggle, we affirm you!

[billieJ]

((((((((((((((((teary_me)))))))))))))))) ~ I certainly do know the feeling. I have only one father and one brother left, and neither of them understand the wretchedness of depression. They do not understand why getting up and participating in life to the fullest is so difficult. My brother has about given up on me, considering me, I think, his "crazy" sister. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Try to accept the fact that if our conditions had symtoms that would show, like a 20-lb goiter or something, it would not be so difficult to us to get some empathy, but where symptoms are inside, they cannot be them, and, to them, it is somewhat like believing in the tooth fairy, or, in my case, laziness and a proclivity to complain. We here at PC understand very well, as, no matter what other conditions we may have, there is usually some depression in there as well - sometimes a lot. Consider me a friend in support and empathy - billieJ

[lonegael]

((((((((teary-me))))) It's as hard for them to understand depression as it is for us to understand how loving family member can NOT understand. We're all so isolated in our own experiences and our own definitions of pain that we just can't reach each other.
From your letter Ii see that you are hurting and trying to reach out to your family.
From what you give me as his response your brother has heard you and reached back to his "little sister" but because he didn't understand what you were saying, your fingertips missed each other.It's a picture that makes me very sad for you both, hon.
Please don't give up, or take his non-understanding as a personal affront. He can't do it, even though it sounds like he loves you. I think we with MI's are all too aware of the limits of our understandings, but a lot of so called normals aren't. In this way, dear, you are the more healthy of the two. I hope that he might understand you again, Teary_me.Huggggs, and good luck.