Having a hard time

I don't know what to do about it - everything is so hard right now.

And on top of it all, I realized TODAY that I missed my therapy meeting YESTERDAY. I completely forgot what day it was . I realized in the middle of my shift at work and I almost cried.
I've missed only one appointment like this -by just forgetting what day it was - this is not like me at all, what's going on
I'm sure it doesnt help that I barely use my planner anymore because my job keeps dictating it out at the last minute *wants to scream*

My boyfriend has finals this week and it's hard to watch him just barely scrape by (if he even passed?)... pulling all nighters and FINALLY working.... I wish he could have earlier in the semester but he tried and it just couldnt work. Dunno how it's working now either.

We don't have a move in date for the apartment.

We don't have a room mate for the apartment.

I was COUNTING on my boyfriend coming for at least SOME of the holiday vacation but he still hasn't found any way to come because of the DUMB CATS x.x He just hasn't found anyone to watch them and there's no way to bring them. So on top of it all the wonderful vacation I've been looking forward to may prove to be tough as well.

And I still haven't found someone to fill my shift on Saturday - I shouldn't be scheduled at all because I gave my notice and told him not to schedule me!



*freaks*

((((turquoisesea)))))
I am sorry you are having a hard time right now, I hope things will be going better soon.

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That is a lot to deal with. I'm sorry you are having so much trouble. Could your boyfriend board his cats at a pet store or a vet office? Sometimes they will board animals. That is what one my friends did when they went out of town. Good luck.

Good suggestion (((Turquoisesea)))

I'm sorry you're going through all this... I hope it gets better very very soon

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Sorry you're having such a tough time right now! I agree with googley's suggestion about boarding the cats, it's a great idea Is your boyfriend looking for someone to take them for the vacation, or just to look in on them? It might be easier to persuade someone to come over and feed them/clean the litter box once a day if they live near you, rather than trying to find someone who would be willing to take them home.

As for the other stresses, I hope that you get through them ... take some deep breaths, be kind to yourself. Maybe you and your boyfriend could do something special when his exams are over, like go for a nice dinner. I think you both deserve it!

thank you everyone

In response to some of the suggestions - my boyfriend can't afford boarding (it would cost in the hundred/s range I believe). We don't have any friends nearby who are staying - almost all are going home.

The only friend he had hoped for JUST responded and said no to Christmas time, MAYBE to a few weeks from now (the last week of break)

It bothers me that it's so last minute, and I was also looking forward to this particular week

Sell the cats? JUST KIDDING!!!!!!! Sorry that this has thrown a glitch into things, dear. What can you do to make sure that you can enjoy Christmas anyway? Huggs dear and I hope a solution crops up for you soon.

Good Day, Turquoisesea! Current status? Keeping you in my best thoughts...

Thanks everyone *hugs*

"sell the cats? JUST KIDDING" - yup that would fix it

"current status?"
I am freaking out this morning. I asked my boyfriend to set my alarm for 9 because he had my phone in his hand at the time but he didn't do it, so I slowly woke up to crazy fears of mine and was in bed half awake for about one hour, and I can't calm down from that. It also has ruined my plan for the day - I barely have enough time in the day for what i need anyway and losing the good hour that was meant for practice is BAD. I was planning on coffee shop too, which I don't have time for now. My boyfriend also forgot to pain the scratch in my car (he scraped her up a little ) but at least he's doing that now. I'm starting to relax some even as I write this.

I guess I need to re-orient, get to work and find out if I can travel tomorrow (they STILL haven't found someone to cover me on the day I want to travel back home - its supposed to snow 2 days from now until Christmas and I don't drive in the snow much x.x)

I'm upset because I have been looking forward to this break for a while but so many things have fallen apart. I wanted to have everything bought and wrapped for Christmas before driving home, but that definitely won't happen. It looks like I'll buy some wrapping paper when I get out from work, and work from there. Maybe run by the coffee shop and try to get an hour's practice in at the practice rooms, and grab some cherries for a cherry pie I am making as a present for tomorrow.

*nervous*

*TS* I wish there was more I could say but all I can say is that I am here for u. if you want you can text me because I cant always get on line

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I wasn't sure if I should make a new post for this but oh well.

My boyfriend is failing... he didn't go to one of his finals today because he was terrified. He's on his way to his last one, he doesn't think he even has a shot at it. He only had 3 finals... this is not good.

He FINALLY got in contact with a psychiatrist who told him an eval would cost a few hundred dollars, not covered by insurance.
My boyfriend has been ignoring the obvious choices for years - talk to his general doctor, use the FREE health services at school.

I don't know how to help him. I know it's not my fault, i know I can't do this for him.

but I'm SO SAD right now.
And if he failed this semester, I am not sure he can continue next semester. Which might mean he's going back home to his parents because they wouldn't pay rent. So where does that leave me? I'm scared....
I'm finally getting myself together.... this might rip me apart again

Sometimes I feel so awful about forgetting appointments or other obligations. But it'll be fine, you live and you learn. And I can understand your frustrations concerning your boyfriend and the holidays; I wont be able to see my girlfriend over the break.

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