[IrishMe]

Please bear with me...I'm just sooooo durn angry with people!!! These are the people that are supposed to be closest to me and they just don't have a freakin clue do they????

You tell a friend " I hate my life" She responds, knowing I'm at rock bottom in my life, "then do something about it" " you always say that" and she's and RN!! My daughter....if I could reach thru the computer..I would probably smack her.

I'm dealing with a lot....I'm about to be homeless if my SSI doesn't come thru this month, I have no phone as they cut it off, I'm lucky I still have internet. My daughter can spend 100's on her in laws for gifts....knows how broke I am and all she can say is " gee I hope you sell the fridge" OMG...SHE'S a SOCIAL WORKER...also knows my recent DX...has no clue about what I'm going thru.

Why are people sooooooo stupid when you need them the most????? All I ever seem to get is smart A*(^ answers or a severe lack, of what appears to me, to be a total lack of understanding???

I'm sinking in my personal life, it's falling apart, I'm trying to deal with other issues about an adopted child, and I just can't take much more of being alone and noone understanding.

I keep praying for strength...but I'm sure having a hard time finding it today..

[lonegael]

Problem is they are standing a little too close? acuity, visual or toehrwise suffesr from being too close or too far. They los track of the who picture and get caught up on dumb little crap and assumes that that's what you are upset with too. Know how you feel, and yes, Will pray for you, Irishme. Huggs.

[Rohag]

If not today, maybe the strength will arrive tomorrow. In the meantime, breathe, rest, and vent some more.

Edit: "Why are people sooooooo stupid when you need them the most?????" - This is a profound question...

[IrishMe]

Thanks ladies...

I'm calming down....still don't understand people. Profound? You're so right Rohag!!!

It just seems that the people we talk to almost everyday should have some sort of clue. When they don't, we get frustrated which makes us turn things inwardly I believe, which thus makes the depression worse. Seems like a very vicious circle sometimes and I'm tired of the merry go round my friends...

Still scared to start my new med...haven't even gone to pick it up yet and don't know if this is the time to start. They were supposed to have someone call me to set up a T or counselor...but I haven't heard anything yet.

Thanks for being here!!! I'm done bawling like a baby for now...

[Naturefreak]

(((Irishme)))
Just a few hugs to know I care.

[IrishMe]

Well.....

Social Security just added salt to the wound....they denied my claim.

Now I am looking at evicition...what else could possibly go wrong today..

Maybe you might find some help here (some numbers to call):

http://www.dhh.louisiana.gov/offices/?id=62

You might also want to call your congressional delegation to see if someone will help you. I have found my representatives to be helpful.

So sorry this is all happening. Good luck.

[Tumnus]

IrishMe,

I'm going to a friend's house but will PM you later, okay? Glad you still have internet. I'll join your prayers with my own....

[lonegael]

((((((Irish me))))))) hang in there. Do you have a temprorary place you can go to until something else can be found.
I think one of the reasons those around us just turn off is that they just bottom out. That's not your fault or mine, just part of human biology and psychology. This is a hard illness, and if it were anything else, they could apply for respite services. Another problem is that it is a scary illness. Not everyone can tolerate looking into the depths we live in. I think they don't understand because for them it would hurt too much. HUUUUGSSSS and if you can, keep in touch so that we can know what's happenng to you. will be praying.