It's 5:30 in the morning here....

and I really just want this day to be over already. For the last week, at least, I've been waking up hours before my alarm. Then, I'm stuck staying awake until it's time for school.

I cry over everything, or have no reaction to it whatsoever. I'm to the point where stress makes me physically ill. I hate school. The only reason I haven't dropped out yet is because I was a minor until just before the second semester started. I only have a few months left until graduation, but it's almost as thought that makes it harder for me to finish.

I just can't stand this. I have no idea what makes me like this, but I'm definitely not okay with it. I'm constantly bored, or on the verge of tears. Why can't I be like everyone else? Just for a little while?

Hello, Normalplease!

Looking over some of your earlier posts, your mother was opposed to you seeing any type of therapist or medical professional to be checked out. Is this still the case? Now, as an adult, you may have more options. Yes, living at home and being in school still have their limitations, but you may be able to secure your privacy much more effectively.

School counselors or even a school nurse should be available (you've already tried that route; now may be a better time). Community agencies (2-1-1, 211.org in the US) might also be able to serve you.

As hard as it is, your last few months in school are a window of opportunity to obtain assistance for problems that probably won't go away with graduation.

Hi, Normalplease!

Rohag is right - you may want to talk to your school counselor again and ask for her advise and maybe they can recommend a therapist for you to see. I'm sure they will be happy to help you. As you are of age now this is something you should really concider. I'm glad I did - I had a chance to get so much off my chest and I always left feeling better. I still have my ups and downs - but I'm so glad I took that step to see a theapist.

Please stay in school and graduate - you will be glad you did in the long run. Graduation is not only the end of one stage of your life, but the beginning of another stage of life which can we awesome.

I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts!

Sorry it took so long to reply.... I have a dr's appointment coming up to address this very problem. I was wondering if anyone could advise me on what I should be sure to mention.

Obviously, the depression has to be addressed, but should I bring up the random spurts of hyperactivity? It literally makes me bounce in my seat. I can't sit still, I'm irritated, I have outbursts (throw things, yell). What do you guys think?

Hello, Normalplease. Bring up everything that is bothering you. Be forthright and honest. If you think it is a problem, say so.

I commend you for taking this step. Good luck.