Dead brain...

I don't know about you guys, but I seriously feel as if my brain has gone dead. Everything seems foggy. Sometimes I feel as if I can almost come out of myself and see myself in the third person and then realize how crazy my life is and then it just seems unreal. Does anyone ever feel that way??

I'm probably not describing it well. But just feels like being this way can't be real, that it's almost like its a bad dream. I don't know, I feel crazy at times and just can't seem to think straight anymore. Just in a daze and confused right now. Need some clarity, will I ever get it?? I'm worried that I will be in this state forever.

I just can't think anymore....
Everything unclear, so nebulous, I'm in a haze of doubt.
Simple things, so difficult, and can't make myself come around.
Sick of this lie, sick of this act, turn the page for once
To something that makes sense, something that I can taste
For I lost the time and don't know when I'm coming or going
The same day, like a love song on repeat
Deja vu and its all I remember, am I insane?
Who can know, but I, as I'm stuck in this disarray.

Choson (c) 2010

Aww Chosen I hate that you feel so lost. I sometimes feel that way to. Im glad you came here to talk. Evrryone on here is wonderful. If you need someone to talk to im here. Im listening.

Depression has often left me feeling alone, isolated, confused and lacking in the ability to concentrate. The more depressed I am, the more brain fog I have. If depression is left untreated for too long you can even end up delusional - I have. I have also experienced disassociation (depersonalization) "periods of detachment from self or surrounding which may be experienced as "unreal" (lacking in control of or "outside of" self) while retaining awareness that this is only a feeling and not a reality." One time while hospitalized I even had an out of body experience. This was when I had been feeling suicidally depressed for a long time and finally acted on it (again).

Get depression treated right away. And don't give up if you need to seek help from different doctors or try several different meds before you find the right treatment that works for you.

I have 'dead brain' too. Lately it's been particularly bad. I feel like I'm not really thinking clearly and comprehending what other people say.
I also have trouble taking things seriously... it's kind of creepy, but it's really kind of numbing. I don't know.
I hope your brain fog clears soon!

Choson
I have felt like you many times and probably will again.
The good news is that it is NOT forever. It will pass .

Hope you find professional help soon, Choson.

Thanks for the replies as always.
I wish to have clarity and direction once again, most importantly a sense of hope.
Its difficult though when you have to find a job and your mind is so foggy.
Been real stressed in finding a good job, but seems my efforts are a waste because my mind is so confused and its hard to focus on anything.
But as much as I want a job, in this state I am so unsure of myself and my abilities that I'm anxious that even if I get a job, I wouldn't be able to do it well..
I'm so frustrated and angry at myself, seems that whatever situation comes, I will be unable to handle it.

Get help, Choson.