please help...

Hello.I am not sure if depression is my problem, or anxiety or what.Or even if this thread should be in the relationship section instead. My boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me 2 weeks ago and I took it very hard, but tried to see things realisticly and maintain a positive outview. I organised my move out of our place and I go to work every day. But I can't eat or sleep since then and I find myself hopeless for the first time in my life, I feel like nothing matters and I am normally a positive person. It's not that I am afraid of being alone in generally, but I just feel so terribly alone here at the moment. I have moved countries to be with him and I feel like I lost my only friend. All the people I know here are mutual friends, I can't talk to them really. I tried starting to re-organise my life and I seemed ok. I know that breaking up was the right thing to do if obviously he doesn't feel the same way about me anymore and I am not even angry at him or anything.I have accepted it, knowing it will be for the best. However, now I occasionally have panic attacks and I am anxious all the time-I can't concentrate on anything and I'm walking around aimlessly.I feel like I am spiralling out of control, since then I have been drinking alot and sleeping with strangers, knowing full well I have been projecting my feelings onto them but knowing doesn't necessary help. Please help, I don't know what to do with myself. I have been depressed before but managed to drag myself out of it, this time however nothing seems to work. Everyone says that this is normal after a break up and it will pass, but I don't think it will and I am scared of ending up in hospital after a massive bender that went out of control. If anyone could suggest what to do, I would be so grateful.

You are in a pretty deep hole right now. You are facing many big problems in your life. You are at sea, adrift and floundering.

But I'm sure that there is at least one of your problems that is fixable in the near future. I don't know which one it is, but you are capable of figuring it out. Focus on this one single problem and then do the work necessary to fix it. After you have solved this one dilemma, then you can turn your attention to the other problems in your life that are waiting to be taken care of.

First FOCUS. Then FIX.

Hello, Lonelylondongirl. You are grieving. Perhaps a few sessions with a therapist would be useful?

How are you doing today, Lonelylondongirl?

hey there, just wondering if there's any way to get some sort of therapy?
I wouldn't give up on the friends just because they are mutual. If they are your friends, well. Try to make new friendships as well, but try to pick one or two mutual friends to reach out to in your hard time.

gentle hugs