Why Im depressed(*Triggering*)

WARNING TO ALL!!!!

THIS MAY BE A TRIGGER TO DEPRESSION, PANIC
ATTACKS, AND SELF-HARM AND OTHERS

I was just wondering If any of these reasons are wrong or If anyone feels the same way??

My reasons
They don't have to be good, they're just why I'm depressed
so **** you for judging.

1. I've only had one friend who hasn't backstabbed me or
used me.
2. I dont have trust for anyone anymore.
3. I have trouble making friends
4. I believe that any and every relationship will go wrong
because I have never seen a real functional relationship
or one that has ever lasted.
5. I don't think i'll ever be able to connect with anyone
on a personal basis.
6. I do not have any friends any more.
7. I never get out much any more.
8. I left a guy so I could stay friends with my best
friend and now I have strong feelings for him.
9. I have no one to talk to.
10. I was be alone on valentines day
11. I am failing school
12. I can't tell people what on my mind cause they will
judge me.
13. I write about how I feel and show certain people who I
think can help but no one cares.
14. I cant stop cutting my self and the scars are depressing
15. I can't stop thinking of my ex
16. I feel gross, fat and disgusting and my sister tells
me too
17. I am a horrible: friend, sister, daughter
18. I feel like I deserve to be alone because all I do is
**** poeples lives up
19.(My lucky number) I feel totally alone and utterly
useless and feel like no one wants me around

The List Goes On And On.

I expect most depressed people can identify.

The real issue for me is how do you get from depressed to the woman who lives life to the fullest?

sending gentle hugs

You are right every one of those items are reasons for depression......

There is definitely a conflict between living life to the fullest & all the reasons for depression......can't get there from here with road blocks in the way.....so the goal needs to be getting the road blocks out of the way little at a time.

Only way to remove some of those road blocks is to look at them in a different way or in a different light by changing the way one thinks about them or the way we look at life. Rather than holding onto the reasons we need to get rid of them as if they were butterflys sitting on the palm of our hands.

Hopefully you have a T who can help you with this.....maybe you could take your list with you & talk about the things on your list & they can help you work on what thinking it is that is keeping the road block there & what you need to do to free yourself from them.

Best wishes as there is nothing worse than the bondage that depression has on us.....I completely understand as I have been there for many of the same reasons you have & many other reasons of my own that aren't even on your list but were adding up the number of reasons on my list.

Take care,
eskielover

Don't worry about people judging your reasons for depression. No one can judge them. There is no such thing as a "stupid reason to be depressed." Just because someone else doesn't understand why it's a big deal does not make it any less of a big deal for you. I am sorry that you feel this way... I don't have the answer for how to stop feeling that way because I am depressed, too. But I can tell you that the people here will listen to you.