negative thinking( trigger?)

I have lived through my first post to this forum. I didn't realize how hard it would be. I was so afraid to come back and see if anyone would reply, to see if I would be received....and now I am filled with anxiety. I was received so warmly and the community here seems so caring that this seems silly, but still I live with this every day in every situation...

I go totally blank when it's my turn to reply to someone else. My mind fills with negative thoughts, thoughts about what a dumb @$$ I am, thoughts about how unimportant, stupid, redundant, worthless.... fill in the blank...I am. Then I worry about how what I say will be interpreted, will someone take it the wrong way, does it sound dumb, am I being helpful...I obsess over posts on a forum to people I don't even know. Every time I try and reach out to someone, anyone, the negative thinking takes over and tries to undermine me. It usually wins. How do I win and not let the negative thinking undermine me? I'm not in therapy yet. I have been close to calling insurance and setting it up, I'm just a bit afraid and out of hope of it really helping me at this time.

Jan

Hi Ogette,

I know the feeling! The situation you describe is one that many of us here have been through and believe me, you are in the right place.

If you can just stick with us for a little while you will see the nature of this forum, which is supportive and safe for someone who is struggling with negativity. I have been here for about a year, and it has helped me through the dips and given me a much needed boost.

When I wake up in the morning these days my first thought isn't 'How depressed am I?' - it is 'Wonder what's happening over at Psych Central?' It's a much bettter feeling.

Welcome, O, I'll look out for you.

Myzen

Maybe you could use the smilies and add only a word or two?

Relax. Take your time. It's all good.

Petunia

thanks so much for the advice and reassurance. As silly as it seems, I actually thought I was the only one who felt this and struggled so much with this. Although it is not a nice thing to suffer, it's good to know that I am not alone...

Jan

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oh no your not alone.....I too suffer from what your talking about.....but keep posting it will get easier....this place has helped me through so many troubled times and most of them I did not answer to, I just read the advice and encouragements and then would just put down a smiley and says thanks.....it will get easier trust us.....
sending you lots of {{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I know how your feeling. It's ok. Relax.

welcome O it's good to have you hear. i SO understand what you're saying.

i've been here long enough to be a moderator and have made NUMEROUS posts and still have anxiety over what i may or may not have said. sometimes it's so bad that i can't type more than a sentence. i think it's my low self esteem. what do you think?

again, welcome

kd