[ogette]

So I decided to take a chance. I'm new here. I have been dealing with depression most of my life. I'm about to turn 4o in a few days. I've been diagnosed with social phobia and major depression in the past, actually many times in the past. I am in the thick of depression, insomnia, anger, feelings of worthlessness....and I am utterly alone. I am not currently under any treatment for depression or anxiety. I am doing this solo, and I'm failing....

I really want a support system to help me deal with this. I have been trying to do this alone for so many years, and I have failed. I need to try something new. I was hoping that I could find a community somewhere where I could fit in and maybe even help others..... thanks for listening....

[kax25]

Welcome Ogette
Im happy you found us. Everyone here is so nice and there is always someone to listen. I think you will find this place helpful,i know i do, and you wont feel alone here.

max

wELCOME. You will find a lot of supportive people here. The more you post, the more attention and help, you'll receive. I'm bipolarian and my meds are working great, right now. I suggest that you go to a T and also a Pdoc and get some meds and some help. No one can do this alone.......xoxo pat

[(JD)]

Welcome to pyschcentral Ogette, you've come to a good place in your life. I'm thinking you might need professional help with this, since major depression is not a come and go disorder. Have you tried meds and/or psychotherapy? The book Feeling Good by Burns has an often used method of CBT to alter our thoughts that will cause things to become better... but it's near impossible to battle major depression alone. I hope you can find more support... but this site is a great place to be! Come back and post often (put us in favorites/bookmark!)

[MacD]

Welcome to the site.....Rest assured, you're never alone here and there are some wonderful friends to be made. Hang in there and call on us anytime...We've all been there and we understand.
Grace

[ogette]

Hi Max,

Thanks for the warm welcome. This seems like a nice, supportive place to be!

Jan

[ogette]

Hi Pat,

Thanks for the welcome. Making that call to the Pdoc/ therapist is scary. I have tried many, many different meds in the past and have not had much luck with them. Thanks for the encouragement.

Jan

[oksomaybeimnuts]

Welcome ogette- so happy that you found us. rest assured that you will fit in and you will not be alone here.

[ogette]

Hi Sky,

Thanks for the welcome! Yes, I have tried therapy and meds, many times in the past. The antidepressants that I've tried either don't make a difference or they make me feel worse. I agree that I need help, I'm just afraid to make that call, and wonder if there is any real hope that I will find a way out of this.
I suffer from social phobia, and even posting on a forum causes me anxiety and fear of rejection, so this in itself is a huge step for me.
thanks again,

Jan

[ogette]

Hi Grace,

Thanks for the warm welcome. It's nice to know that I'm not alone.

Jan

[ogette]

Hi,

Thanks for welcoming me. This seems like a very supportive place.

Jan

[(JD)]

Have you tried online therapy? You know, you really are anonymous, even here. We really don't know or see you here... only your words, what you want us to read... it's a good thing being here. Feel safe. TC

[ogette]

No, I haven't tried online therapy. I don't know why I feel so transparent and in the spot light, especially when I'm posting on the internet. My head knows that I'm anonymous, but my soul feel like it is laid bare...and at this time, my feelings are so big that the voice of logic gets drowned out every time.

I will call and get some help. I just need to find the hope,courage, and phone numbers.

Thanks,
Jan

[Parker10]

Welcome ! From your first post in this thread to your last, there is a major difference.........a willingness to reach out not only here, but to make that phone call ! Way to go !!! This is a great site, and many many supportive and helpful people, you will not feel alone, or rejected here ! Good luck with the step of making that phone call, and keep us posted how you are feeling. (And altho I understand that you are feeling like we can see you, try to focus on the fact that we have no idea who you are, where you are etc. This is a good and safe post to share whatever you feel comfortable sharing..........it may help you more than you can imagine to start here with sharing more about yourself !

Me - I am an open book - had panic and anxiety disorder for 17 years undiagnosed, thought I was gonna live my life out in a State Mental Hospital.......found the right therapist, overcame the PAD with agoraphobia, and just keep on getting better, the more I share and learn! Keep on keepin on !

[Hope4me2]

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WELCOME to PC
you will LOVE it here.
take care and keep posting

[ogette]

Hi,

I am so overwhelmed with all the warm, positive support here. I don't know what to say, but thanks.

Jan

[ogette]

Parker,

Thanks for the welcome and the encouragement. This seems like an awesome place!

Jan