relationship break-up and depression

Tonight I broke up with my boyfriend of more than 5 years. After a very honest, very long conversation, we both agreed that it was the best course of action. We both cried and agreed to remain friends. I would be very sad no matter when this happened, but I have been struggling so much with depression lately, that it makes this especially hard. This is the second major loss I've had in the past week. I feel like I might be swallowed up by grief, it is so intense right now. I feel like I'm just barely hanging on.

I've been there too and letting go is never easy. I eventually broke down and was admitted to hospital. At the time I was not on anti-depressants. Are you currently taking and seeing a pdoc? Maybe phone your doc and explain you are going through a very stressful time and need something to help you cope. I have Benzo's I take when I experience real anxiety and feel I cannot cope - it slows everything down and lets me calm down a bit more.
It's also very hard to be friends straight away. You may need to give each other space apart for a while, and only start your friendship anew once you have really dealt with the reality that it is really over.
I commend you on making such a difficult to decision - strength to you xx

Oh I'm sorry you're going through this, it's never nice even at the best of times. Just give yourself time, ok. I know it's horrible to go through, but it DOES pass, it will get easier, you really just need time, to ride it out.
Try to distract yourself, sitting around thinking about it will make you feel a lot worse, do you have any friends you can call? You probably need them, or family, or whoever, right now. It's good to find things to do to keep you from thinking too much.
x

(((garden gal)))

I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through right now. Change is so hard. But it often means growth too. Sugahorse had a good point about med's Do they ever help you?
Do the very best you can to be gentle and caring with yourself. One of the most calming places for me has been botanical gardens. Do you have anything like that around where you are? It has always been comforting for me to see the beauty of flowers and plants... plus I thought maybe you might feel akin, based on your name. Hang in, garden gal. Sending good wishes your way.

5 years...wow, that's a long time. Don't be too hard on yourself if it takes a long while to recover from this. make sure you have mental health support at this time and you WILL go through something akin to the grieving process stages.

garden gal, sorry you are in such a difficult place. You are in my thoughts.