[JeffYeon1]

People make fun of me in front of everyone and TRY to make me feel bad. I joined basketball because I heard sports relieve deppression. Well, to me, it doesn't. In the games I always mess up and sometimes make the team lose. It makes me feel so bad and that I can't do anything right. It is true, everything I try to do, I do bad on it. I'm doing horrible in school, I got a 1.2 GPA, I can't do any sports correctly, I can't even do simple chores without messing up. I don't know if depression causes these things or if these things cause depression. I don't even know if i'm depressed. I'm a dumbass who can't do anything right.

I started looking for therapy or anything that could help me. They are 200$ an hour, which I can't afford, so I'm here looking for alternatives. I honestly can't go on like this. I'm becoming suicidal and I need help.

[walkswithspiritbear]

((((((((jeff)))))) i have been where you are many times and I don't mean the sports.....
Yes being active can help depression but maybe the sport thing is not what you need, how bout a long walk instead......... just a thought
Why compete with someone when you don't have to Jeff, sounds like you are already competing with yourself and that might be more than enough at this time for you.......
As for looking for a therapist yes they can be very expensive, try looking for something where it might go by sliding scale according to your income.
Not sure if anything I said makes sense just know that you are not alone here...... anytime you need to talk just let me know I have a good shoulder to lean on.......... My thoughts are with you Jeff and hope things look brighter for you very very soon.............. Linda

[Myzen]

Hi Jeff,

I agree with walks. Competitive sport is not the answer with depression. Depression slows your thinking, gives you feelings of low self esteem, and drags you down.

First stop is the doctor, and ask what is available for you, meds and/or therapy etc.

With the exercise I would recommend some non-competitive activity. I use a mountain bike, and that works pretty well for me. Also I would recommend some alternative therapies, maybe some meditation, relaxation etc.

The big secret is to be calm with yourself, and learn to let the negativity pass over you. It can be done, and if you're young there is every chance of recovery.

Good luck, M

[Miss_A]

I know you can hear all most every word they say, but you can try to ignore them and don't listen walk away. Could make a joke out of it and laugh. I use to get bullied and picked on being the "new girl" at secondy school (year 7 - year 11) But them I realised it's not me who has a problem. It's them who is the problem. I started school conselloring which over here should be free one hour and get to miss one lesson. Therpy seems a good way, but I'm having therpy now it's free pver the NHS I think? Any way it's hard to clear my mind of all thoughts. When they just stay trapped in my head for days, months even years. Need to learn to let go of the past and move on. Though it is hard, also try going to your pdoc (GP) tell him/her how you've been feeling and how long. Maybe anti-depressants can be used for you like Prozac which I'm taking now and has a big impact to me. ((((((((((((((((((Jeff))))))))))))))) <font color="blue">You are NOT a dumbass.<font color="black"> You can talk, write, read and so much more. Don't let your knowledge go to waste. It is hard being at school as someone once said to me. </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
school is so manufacture

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Please feel free to PM, if you wanna chat about Depression more. I won't ask you any questions if you don't want. Only you said that it's getting worse and on the scale of 1-10 I think/know that the number is high. Because bullies can f*** up your life, if you let them win. Trust me, they are not worth it! You also said you are becoming suidical and I have felt like that somehow in a stupid way. I made my own contract not to kill or hurt myself and signed it and gave it to someone like my consellor. Now I feel better knowing that I'm NOT going to. Why should I lose everything I've already got? You are going through a though time. I can understand just a bit. But even more I'm worried for you, because you sound like a very nice guy and could do so much more with your life. You've got to promise yourself you won't and that you are still seeking for help. Everyone will support what ever you do, just that we only hope the best for you! Be safe and take care. xx
Miss_A

[BlueFaith]

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But them I realised it's not me who has a problem. It's them who is the problem. :

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I completely agree! Please send me a PM if you need to talk also. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this.

[Hope4me2]

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