Don't Know What To Do.

I have no idea what to do anymore my life is pointless, lets start off by saying that right now is the lowest I have felt ever in my life, I wish I could disspappear, Brenda and I are now through, I told that I love her and that will never change and she told me that she love Gareth and thats who she wants not me, so I told that we cannot be friends any more and that killed me I am now dead inside, on top of it all another friend of had an abortion today the father was another friend of mine and he only found out today and she told him it was a misscariage, I am so lost in this world that I hve no idea on what to do any more. What can I do?

you're dealing with so much right now......you have every reason to believe that your life is pointless.....i'm sure that is how it feels......and i doubt if anything i would say right now will make you feel any better but even when things seem bleakest.life has a way of turning itself around.......you just have to hang in there......talk to people here...get your feelings out....grieve for your loss.........but try to remember that each today brings the promise of a new tomorrow.....sounds corny but its true.....try not to look at this as an end but the chance for a new beginning.....let us know how you are doing........people here care..if you need anything...just ask........julia

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I have no idea what to do anymore my life is pointless, lets start off by saying that right now is the lowest I have felt ever in my life, I wish I could disspappear, Brenda and I are now through, I told that I love her.

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If I was in your situtation, I wouldn't even have a clue what to do or say. So you have got some way to try and deal with it. Sorry if I sound harsh, it's apart of depression feeling the lowest you can think of. But I believe that we can all reprogram our brains to think about the postive's in life. Don't wish to disappear, wish to want something more. I mean I'm sometimes invisable to people. But I don't wish to disappear? I dunno what to say to the next line. But people come and people go, isn't that apart of life. Remember te good times and forget about the bad times. Don't be sad because it's all over be happy because it happend! You told her that you love. Did you mean it? I mean what is love, I'm too young to understand or maybe there's no word to describe such love for one another. But love is not sex, money, abuse etc... it's sharing eachothers feelings together that's what it is for me for now.

I know that you're upset and sad and down in the dumps right now. But if she ever loved someone else that's not the real you. Why live a lie? She might think what a big mistakes she has just made. As there is only one person she likes somewhere in you. I don't understand you disorder much. But I like to do my homework. You deserve better.
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she told me that she love Gareth and thats who she wants not me, so I told that we cannot be friends any more and that killed me I am now dead inside.

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I think that you did the right thing saying you can't be friends anymore, when she doesn't feel the same way at all at this moment. It must have killed you inside, but easy come and easy go. The best couple in love are the ones who stick togerther no matter what at old age. There are more fish in the sea. Who will like you for who you are, for who is friendly and nice and smart etc...

I'm still feel broken after 1 year never talking to my ex-friend boy. i told him how I felt and he didn't feel the same way. I made a bigger fool of myself. So I can't give you any good advice. Just that there be a time and a place. Where you'll might the girl for you. Trust me, be whoever you want to be and you can do this.

Sincerely Miss_A.
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