At a Loss

I cant stand this feeling anymore. My whole body is fighting against my head. I want to never wake up, I hurt so much. I cant talk to my counselor yet I think of all the things I want to say when Im here, I cant take this physical pain all the time, I cant breathe. I hurt. Both inside and out.
What can I do I feel like I am going crazy with thoughts rushing in and out my head hurts so much, I feel like screaming but that wont solve anything and no one hears anyway, Im lost.

I feel for you...I really do. If possible get a cassette recorder, and everytime you want to scream or rant or just talk about what you feel, record it. Take the tapes to your counselor. I know I have to write things down when I think of them, because by the time I get to the doctors the issues have left my mind, or I can not find the words to describe what I want to say. I take my list with me, and it helps me to relay what is bothering me. Best Wishes ((((((((((hugs))))))))).

(((((Jazper)))))

Try to write what you're feeling out, or try what LostSavant did. It helps me a lot to journal

i write things down to take to my T (used to when i ahd one that is

thats the only way i coud get to discuss things...

you said you were in pain inside and out - wiht the physical pain - what is being done for that? having both makes it so much harder to bear.

I read your profile - and thing its great you are going to try somthing new - this may sound dumb to you - it did to me when it was suggested - have you tried a gratitude diary? its just a notebook - where every day you write down 5 things that you are grateful for - it can help wiht depression cos when we are down we tend to only see the darkness surrounding us and forget about the light.

You are starting a whole new chapter in your life - its scary and challenging - its only natural that you react to this - please try to discuss your feelings wiht your counsellor or T - even if its showing what you have written down when you are not there - they need to know where you are in your mind ....

Sometimes it seems that we are at the bottom of a deep hole with no way out - but there is always a way out - there is always hope no matter how dark it is - even when we cant see it its there.

Please take gentle care of yourself and know there are people here who understand the darkness of depression

you can do this - you can get better - one step at a time - one second at a time step by step

take care and keep posting

P7