feel so terrible :(

I feel just, completely horrible. I want to be consumed in numbess and dissociation where I can't feel or think anymore. I want to be so gone to the point where I have no idea what's going on, and nothing is going through my mind. I can't take how I'm feeling, and I want it all to go away. I don't want to cry over every song I hear. I don't want to cry everytime I think about things that happened. I just want to be so lost in nothing.

My depression gets so bad at night. I think about this all day, but it gets worse at night. I can't stop ****ing crying. I want someone to take the ability to think out of my brain.

I'm so tired, lacking of so much sleep and food because of the sleep, and it's making everything worse. I've never felt like this before. It's so much worse than being suicidal. I don't want to die, I just want to be numb.

I don't know how to fix this feeling. I know why it's happening, but I don't know if I should say. This was probably a pointless thread, I'm sorry.

Hang in there!!!

You said you know why, so I have to ask why??

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Stay busy busy busy so at night you're too tired to do anything but sleep <33333

Hi forgivexforget,

I am sorry you are feeling so terrible! I think depression is a miserable disease.

Has something happened in your life that has made these feelings worse? Are you on medication? Do you have a doctor and/or therapist?

Caramel

I've always had depression, and I've dissociated before and have felt numb before, but just recently the man who I feel is the most amazing person in my life, and the one I still love, stopped talking to me. He has his reasons and I understand, so I don't want to say much more on the matter, or else I'll feel even worse.

I'm not on medication. I used to be afraid of taking them, because I already take a lot of allergy medicine, and would have to take medicine for anxiety and OCD along with depression, so I'm scared of all those medicines coming together.

I don't have a therapist. I used to, but my family started having really bad financial problems, so now I don't.

You just described me. That's exactly how I feel. I wish we could both find an answer the only difference between the two of us is there is no reason in my life for me to feel this way. I am on medication and do see a doctor. But for the last month I have really taken a turn for the worse, can't leave the house now unless I just have to. I cry at the drop of a hat. Been on all the meds maybe I need to get another increase I don't know what to do at this point I just got on here tonight hoping this will help me some how.

Hello forgivexforget,

Just so you don't worry, I am on anti-d's anti-anxiety and anti-convulsants as well as anti-histamines. I don't have any problems with the mix. It may take a couple of weeks to get used to them but I've not had any worries.

Please don't be afraid of them if they give you a chance at having your depression lift you will have an opportunity to feel better and it makes a huge difference.

I've been thinking about going on medication, but idk. Don't want to have to tell my parents what's going on.