Heck with the process...I cannot do this!

I am not doing so good tonight.
I am feeling really, really low.
Hating me. I am ugly. I am crazy. I am worthless.
Wishing I wasn't alive.
I am over the process today. I don't think I can last through it.
This sucks! I am angry. I hurt.

Please try to switch your negative thinking to some positive things. Your depression is talking, its trying to take over, please counteract it with postives !

What is the worst thing going on with you, right now? Let us know......can you call your T? xoxox pat

Can't really talk about it...on shut down mode for the most part.
Just very angry that I still cannot get my thoughts together.
I hate that my mind goes in all different directions and I cannot stop it.

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(((((((SJ))))))) please stay safe.

i'm holding you with warm hugs, stay safe....xoxo pat

(((((((sj)))))))

Hang on, stay safe, we'll all help how we can. You can make it through.

big changes, you are doing it, minute by minute. I am with you.

I don't think I can last through it.
This sucks! I am angry. I hurt.

This sure does suck!!! These are the harder times to get through. Learning that indeed we are able to live through these awful feelings..........even though we don't think we can is painful.

We've spent countless years of self hatred so we know of what we speak when we say it takes time to learn to undo that kind of thinking.

Feeling like one's mind isn't in one's control can be very scary.

Posting here is venting and sharing. Small comforts to the big hurts you are feeling but still an accomplishment.

You're able to come here and post what you are thinking and feeling. That enables the folks here on the board to help you beat this negative thinking that isn't true.

You are not ugly. You are not crazy. You are not worthless. We're sorry you're feeling low and wishing you weren't alive.

(((Susan))) we wish this were easier somehow.

we really wish we had a Nerf bat of hope to gently bop you with

(((((((((((((((((((SJ)))))))))))))))))))))

I know you are having a hard time right now but your strong. I have seen it. Like someone said above, minute by minute. You can do this. Dont lose faith in yourself. I have faith in you.

Hugs,


Jen

I am staying safe.
I am just struggling bad.
Thanks again for all your support.

You are staying safe.

You are taking good care of yourself during this journey.

You can do this, you are doing this.

thinking of you today. i send hugs and fayeroe and leta send kisses......xoxoxpat

moment by moment when it gets hard sweetie..........break it down to moments.

with hope,

Sending you care and support dear,
I know it sucks
Bearhugs,
Fuzzy

Staying to myself mostly.
My couples T appt. was canceled this evening....T is sick.
Not really upset about the cancelations though...didn't feel much like talking anyway.
Still here...still queer. (ahh humor...it helps right?!)

hahahahahahahaha..........xoxo pat

ROTFL.

Yes, having a sense of humor is great. Your gonna be just fine SJ.


Hugs,

Jen

Don't fight it ... go with it... sometimes our brains just won't work for us... it's like the chinese finger puzzle, the harder we try , the worse it becomes... let it ... happen... your mind will clear, hang onto that thought... it will... it won't stay so clogged... it's ok , it happens...