Everything is a mess

I can't handle school; I can't handle anything. I just want to escape; I don't know what to do. I spend every moment desiring only death - there's nothing left to do to help. I'm a mess: severe major depression, borderline personality disorder, social anxiety disorder, bipolar 2, post traumatic stress and obsessive compulsive symptoms - and nothing's getting better, I just feel more pressured and stuck. There's nowhere to go, no options other than school, and that's too much pressure.
I feel so out of it, there only seems to be one option... and that's not good. I'm so lost!

((((Taonuviel)))) I wish there was something I could do to help you. All I can do is let you know that I understand completely, especially since we have the same list of diagnoses, and appear to be in the same place. Please know that you are not alone in your struggle. I am still trying and hope that you can hang in here with me. I personally happen to know that you are a wonderful person, and I want you to hang onto whatever hope you can find.

I think I'm having a breakdown. I don't think I can handle anything.
I don't know.

You don't have to handel everything. Let it go for just a moment. There are times that is all I can do. This moment.If all you can do is breathe that is good! If all you can do is stand Good for you! just this moment. What can you do this moment/second?

Hi.

Are you on medication for depression?

~Dottie

please take care of yourself. see a T. and i'm sorry that you're having such a difficult time. we're here for you. pat

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I think I'm having a breakdown. I don't think I can handle anything.
I don't know.

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I know exactly how you feel, I've been fighting to hang on, to get some help for to many years and it's taking so long. I've had so many breakdowns in the last year the hospital told me last time that if I wind up in there again they'd have to commit me.

I'm finally on meds, which I've been fighting to stay off of for more than a decade. Yes, it's a fight I've lost, but they are starting to help and I have to believe things are finally going to start improving. I'm finally just barely strong enough to take enough meds to get to Social Security and apply for disability to hang on for a while and have time to heal. Everything I've read and heard says that PTSD and everything else can be treated given time. I want to heal, I need to heal, and I'm going to beat this! I have to . . .