[Taonuviel]

Seems I told myself I'd never let myself sleep the day away from depression. I suppose it's not as bad as it could be... I still do what I'm supposed to... most of it, anyway. Though I opted to sleep through a field trip the other day... it would have been good for me to go to that... I felt like I couldn't drag myself there, I needed another nap instead. I was supposed to go... darn it.
I'm dragging my way through everything lately, I don't know how I'll manage to keep up with the schoolwork when it starts coming - and I'm only taking 4 classes!
And the weight... ugh. I can feel all the extra weight I'm gaining... it's so frustrating. But I have no energy to work it off, and eating is so tempting... I worked so hard to reach the weight I was at, and now I'm a couple sizes bigger and feeling sloppy.
I hate this so much, I can't stand feeling this way. I'll probably just have to go back to bed to cope with how I feel.

[__zh]

Taonuviel,

Sometimes this is how depression is. Sleeping can be a coping method. Or a combo of coping, meds, and the dang disease itself. Bleh!

Over the past decade we've gone through some rough patches with our depression and had times where we did an incredible imitation of a slug or sloth. That's all we could do given how our brain was working on the meds we were on.

Even when physically active and on meds there were times when the sleep monster came and took up residence for weeks.

How closely are you working with your pdoc on meds for this upcoming school term?

Wishing something we could write would take away some of how awful you're feeling.

i just finished a three week sojourn of sleeping. i understand what you are going through. it's depression.

[soonforgotten]

I can relate, I am exactly the same thing I stay up all night and sleep all day, and having the same weight issues I've gained 16 pounds and feel so disgusted with myself.
Lisa

[Taonuviel]

Well... I'll be seeing my new pdoc Friday... I'll probably see him fairly often since I've been teetering on the edge of death and life rather badly lately. One med is causing increased appetite/weight gain, but messing with it is dangerous because it's taken away this indescribable impulsively suicidal feeling. But I think we're going to try to work on it.

[complic8d]

(((((((Taonuviel)))))) I know all about the struggle to stay out of bed all day. I usually don't make it. I'm glad that you are seeing a new doc on Friday. I am hoping so much that you find some relief from your horrible depression, without side effects. I will be thinking of you. Please hang in there and know that I understand. HUGS!

[Hope4me2]

{{{{{{{{{{Taon}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Sleeping is a way of coping that is for sure....this past weekend has been very difficult for me as I am sure some of you know...how I got through was to take xanax and sleep....I slept and slept and slept I did not want to wake up and face the pain and turmoil in my life right now...I just want to sleep now... I saw my T today and told him this and he said it is how my mind is trying to cope....he says this is normal and sometimes you just need to shut down and let your mind regroup....so mine does not seem worried about it right now but he says if it does not get any better this week then he will talk to my Med Dr then and see about adjusting my meds some. I just wanted you to understnd that your not alone and please hang in there and do not be so hard on yourself....take care

[Fuzzybear]

I also relate (((((((((((((((Tao))))))))))))))

Good wishes,



Fuzzy

[wisewoman]

Sleep can be a restorative force that can keep us alive when our minds are having other thoughts. Sleep as much as you need and keep close contact with your treatment team.

[jbug]

Tao- I hope you are feeling better and am able to stay out of bed some. It was good to see you in chat today at least that is a step.

Jbug

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((((Tao))))))))))))))))))))


Fuzzy