[Yack]

Has anyone else been this bad?

-To go 2 days without showering (eww) repeatedly
-To have no desire to work after years of busting my bum
-To not care about anything
-To feel like you are 5
-To do stupid things to jeopardize a career
-To not leave the house for days at a time
-To get sick from most SSRI's
-To not care about holidays at all
-To want nothing but a stuffed animal and my dog (I am not a little kid)
-To stop cooking
-To not see improvement, except in little spurts

ok, I don't get this...I miss my old hometown BADLY....everyone keeps telling me to grow up and "hey, you were living in your own place", it's just what happened to you...its a security issue...

So one the one hand, I feel like I am 5...on the other, some days....80...

I am sorry I am venting again

I was ok over the weekend - thought maybe this was getting better but I guess not -

It's been 9 months

"Yack"

[(JD)]

It could be normal for you in your situation with your psychological issues imo. We all have our reasons for not answering the phone, leaving the house and cooking.... I think it's more important to find out the WHY rather than the what. TC

[Yack]

I feel lost, don't know where to go from here...

1-Parents' moved
2-Major illness same year
3-Grad school
4- Abusive boyfriend

According to my therapist I hit some "max stress level" (PTSD - bec of bf) and went into "shut down" (depression)....beyond the range of normal stress. WAY BEYOND. The illness was one.

The Law and Order ordeal was the second. I am much worse off now than I was when I was physically ill. This is insane.

[(JD)]

That's a lot of stress Yack.. and would have a negative effect on anyone. Maybe you need meds too?

[jmo531]

Yack,

I can relate to almost the entire list up there. The best advice I can offer is to take things one day at a time. Dont push yourself to "feel better". I know people might think I am wrong in saying that but I really dont care.

It takes time to deal with what you have been through. Each person deals differently in different situations. Be gentle with yourself. Talking with your T is a great start. I know we all wish we could progess in our care at the speed of light, unfortunately, it is a tremendously slow process. Keep venting when needed. Thats always good.

Your not alone. Hang in there. Baby steps.