Crashing and Burning

Ugh. What can I say? I hate everything right now and I feel so hopelessly sad and lonely. I think if I had a good real life friend I wouldn't have any problems but there is no one. I latch onto an ex just because he was around to speak all the time and put up with his annoying obsession with his gf until I finally snap. He probably blocked/deleted for good now, I mean why talk to me when you can go have phone-sex with your 12 year old online girlfriend? >_> People suck.. and obviously it doesn't get any better..

This is the first time in my life I've considered suicide.. and there's no one around me to pull me out of this..

Hi, LittleForgetMeNot!

• Hatred
• Sadness
• Loneliness

Of those three, loneliness may be the easiest -- relatively speaking -- to address.

What concerns me is the above combination has led you to dark thoughts. I hope your mind and heart are clear enough to reach out for assistance, even if that means phoning some help line to talk to a flesh-and-blood person.

Regardless, please keep posting. Let us know how you are doing.

LittleForgetMeNot.

I'm sorry I'm not the best at giving advice or anything, but know that everyone here cares deeply for you.
And I know that we arent real life friends, but we are still your friends and dont want harm to come to you.
Sadness, hatred, loneliness. All things which I know, although probably under different circumstances to you. Yet throughout all of these things I am still here.
Which is why you need to try and stop these thoughts of suicide. Call a helpline. Email someone. Anything. Just dont go through with it. Because soon all of these feelings will be gone, replaced with happiness.
You are needed in this world, so please dont leave it.

Hugs xxx

Thanks guys.. I feel better now..

I'm going for a phych assesment in 10 days so hopefully soon things will get better

how are you doing LittleforgetMeNot?

Okay.. I don't feel that bad but I can't say I feel good either. I still feel very negative about life, and I just want to sleep all day.. but maybe because I'm surrounded by a lot of negative people.

I went out for a movie yesterday with an older friend. She used to be my "big sister" in a program, but since that has ended she's become my.. I think child and youth worker? She's the only one around here that validates my feelings so being with her I feel safe and understood. She's planning on contacting my school to set up a new plan that will have me back in "public" where I can socialize with kids my own age again instead of being isolated at home. She's going to go with me for that psych assessment..

In the over all things are looking up, but my moods aren't so much

Not yet. But after the assessment and some treatment, they will. Hang in there, alright? ^^

I'll try It's only a little over a week away anyway

Just saw your posts lfmn. I isolate as well and am struggling to get back out in the world. Id be happy to chat anytime. Hope you start to feel better. cG