Icing on the cake

My week is going really really bad. My thoughts are all jumbled up and I am having a hard time deciding what is true and what is false.
I got a letter yesterday from my Pdocs office saying he's quitting the clinic I go to and going to a different one. I saw him yesterday and asked him who he recommends and he asked me which ones I knew, I told him and he said well based on what you said I recommend X. Its a woman doctor. I don't like women doctors. I talked with my T about it and he told me which clinic my Pdoc is going to and asked if I would like to go there. I would rather stay with Dr.Clay because he is an awesome doctor and imho the best in my area. Despite the news that I can follow him I'm still in a funk. I got put on Lexapro yesterday and know that it will take awhile before it takes effect. I hate feeling this way. I just want to be able to function. Right now I am not. This week I think I missed more classes than I went to. I don't get out of bed until around 11:00 and go back to bed around 2 and sleep for a couple more hours get up and am back in bed around 8. I am sleeping my life away. I don't want to be like this I want to be happy, I want to love life, I just don't want to be like this anymore.

Janniebug

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Change can suck big time. Even if you are staying with your Pdoc, him moving can cause upset. Hopefully the meds will kick in soon and you will feel better. Try not to be too hard on yourself.

My T has moved three times and I always felt like I was leaving another piece of me and of our work together behind. I had to grieve a little each time my T moved. I know, it sounds weird.

Hang in,

Petunia

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i'm sorry it's so hard right now. i hope you feel better really soon.

Good luck with whatever you decide, Jannie. These employment situations can be a real problem for stability. Hang in there.

((JANNIE))
I know how hard things can be. I am living it too.
Let's join together and say "We're not gonna take it anymore!" Let's be the ones who show the world we are brave and we are strong!
Think we can?

about 5-10 years ago my doctor changed from one agency to another. Being a survivor of child sex abuse I rarely like doctors let alone allow one to do my "yearly". Well This doctor I totally trusted and allowed him to do my exams so when the notice came in the mail he was leaving and I h ad to choose someone else in the agency I said NO WAY. I set an appointment with my doctor. and at that appointment I found out where he was going, what state coverage that agency accepted and he called the agency and asked if he can bring clients with him. Of course they said the more the marrier what business doesnt want more clients? So I went home called social services medical insurance department and told them my doctor was leaving one agency and going to another, since I was already established with him its just common sense to continue with him but I needed to switch my insurace coverage to the second of the two plans that the state offers their clients. Social services said no problem and I am still with that same primary physician. and if this happens again. I will again go with him even if I end up paying out of pocket.

Talk with your doctor and maybe you can do the same thing and instead of his/her leaving you can go along with the move.