[tennisgrlcc]

I really just don't know anymore. I'm just ready to be done. done with everything. I feel so numb and empty all the time now nothing makes it go away anymore. I want to feel happy but it's like i just can't. I can put a fake smile on and put the damn mask on but i'm never truly happy. I don't know anymore. I told the T about the bing/purging and that felt good to get that off my chest but this stupid depression is whats killing me. I hate going to school having only one true friend and only having her in one period. I feel so alone. I can't sleep anymore i get like 3-6hrs of sleep a night and everything is slowly killing me. I'm ready to be done. I guess I just needed to vent.

[Rohag]

Hello, Tennisgrlcc!

Originally Posted by tennisgrlcc

I can't sleep anymore i get like 3-6hrs of sleep a night...

My experience is poor sleep or lack of sleep makes everything worse. If other approaches aren't helping, you might give sleep first priority for a while.

That was a short vent. Go ahead, vent some more. This is your thread.

[Yesterdays]

Hey tennisgrl

I've had my fair share of experiences with depression, so I can definitely relate to and understand what you're going through. Depression isn't an easy thing to deal with, and it can often feel like we have to fake our happiness and pretend like we're okay. But sometimes I think that the people in our lives who really care about us would prefer we be honest with them.

Maybe there is someone in your life who you could confide in about how you're feeling. I know it sounds like a scary thing, but it can really help if you have someone on your side who knows what you're going through and is there to support you. I know it's what helped me most.

Just know that you're not alone, there are a lot of other people going through the same thing. Try to stay hopeful, there are always better days in your future.

[tennisgrlcc]

I've tried talking to my dad and he just askes if i have any reason to feel sad and i say no then he's like if you have no reason then don't be sad change your attitude. I hate that I can't just say ok lets be happy hell if i could i would. Why do people always think it's so easy. I want to be happy I want to be like everyone else I see at school and be able to smile and it be true, have tons of friends like everyone else not invisible, I want to be able to eat without being afraid or counting calories or binging and purging all the time. I hate getting up everymorning and feeling this overwhelming feeling and having to do this all over again every day. I feel like i'm hanging by a thread and it's about to break.