Worst time in my life

Right now today i am having the worst problems and in the worst time in my entire life. over the last couple days i have been thinking on how to get my "kit" together and writing notes. But I have one gleamer of hope life. and it's the hope i want to give out there to everyone else who feels like i do, to let God take you one day at a time. when you feel at your worst give it up to God. like i said this is coming from someone who was thinking of what note to write my family yesterday.

You might have heard this already but a favorite quote of mine is "Don't give up before the miracle happens."

I second that. A few weeks ago, I had similar thoughts. Things can change quick sometimes. Sometimes, they change showly, but they change. Hold on, and have faith. Keep talking to people here.

I'm new on here, can't figure how to post my own statement. Related to your post though, been planning exits since I was 17 have had 4 attempts or maybe they are just crys for help I'm now in my 40s I'm trying to determine that if they were real at all, because I'm obviously still here. Been on the net engulfed in articles about exiting all morning. I have bipolar disorder, and things in my life have been bad. I've found a way now, that I know is pain free and will work. I don't plan on doing it now, but Im scared of my new knowledge. I mean am I really in danger or are these just normal thoughts I don't know anymore. I've read a old diary, and it made me realize that I've always been this way. Are these thoughts normal for everyone or just me?

Honestly if it wasn't for my faith in God, I would have been gone long long ago. even yesterday, I am in a situation i thought i would never in my life be in. and thoughts of just ending it kept creeping in my mind. The only thing keeping me going is my faith, I know God has me in the palm of his hand. and this will be a good year for me. I heard my new favorite quote today from Joel Osteen "Walk, Talk, Act, and Dress like 2011 is your year" that's what im trying to do. God Bless everyone on this forum and hope you all draw strength on your relationship with the Lord.

My greatest challenge is dealing with my emotions when I am already feeling emotional. I know it sounds funny to say it, but when I am on my emotional treadmill, my brain running at a million feet per second, and I get presented yet another situation or event that wells up emotionality, I don't deal well.

I find that talking, not trying to solve, but just talking, whether in person, or in this wonderful virtual word, and being brutally honest without being self-defeating, it does a world of wonder. Keep talking. Lots of people are listening.