This feeling

I'm trying to get rid of this feeling that I'm not worth being here among you all. Shutting down this voice is sometime so hard.

Time0

Let us help you shut out this voice because it is wrong!

It is the voice of depression, not of reality.

We are here to help each other and support each other. We don't judge others. That should include not judging ourselves. The fact that you are here seeking help and support proves that you "deserve" to be here.

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let all of our voices help you to calm the one within. you are so special to this site and so many of us. please believe that.

kd

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I know shutting down that voice sometimes is so hard to do. But you are SO worth it!!

You matter. I know how loud that voice can be, and it scares me too.

Caroline

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Thank you!

I'm sorry I'm complaining so much. I'm having a hard time but it doesn't mean I have to take all the space in here. geez!



Time0

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Tell that voice to go jump in a lake.

or string it up from a tree and cover it with peanut butter and make it into a bird feeder

Or bury it deep in the compost beneath my roots...

>>it doesn't mean I have to take all the space in here.

That's the nice thing about cyberspace... it is virtually endless.

It isn't like posting is taking up room that others might use, there is room for everyone, room for every post.

And if you are having a hard time, that is the best reason to post about it, post often, post a lot, get the support you need.

That's what this site is for, that is what we are here for.

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I've recently learn they voice is our own to encourge. The more you give into it the more it seem to strike a coversation with you. Just got to relize your talking to yourself (which you know...it you so you should know yourself pretty well).
Even though I am having my own problem, I find when I hear that voice is to write down what it says, and then read it. This only sometimes works for me... and I recommend you do this next part outside. After you read it, you seem to notice it don't make sense, so burn it and say to yourself "That is no longer me... it is out of my system" I repeat, this only works sometimes for me.
It wouldn't hurt to try.

If you figure out how to banish that feeling please tell me. I know how hard it is to believe you deserve support.

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Everyone deserves to feel healthy, and everyone deserves the support they need to feel healthy or just to get them through rough times.

I know how bad it can be when you feel you don't deserve it.

At those worst times, think of it this way... this is a place that offers support to everyone. No one here makes an evaluation to determine "worthiness".

The criteria for posting is "needing support" or even "wanting support" and doesn't have anything to do with "deserving support".

When you feel you don't deserve support is when you need support the most... so post, post, post!

Dexter,
You wrote,[...the voice of depression...don't judge others...The fact...]
Thanks for those statements. I see much more in them that you have written, and if they are posted frequently they could reinforce the mission of these type of forums. As for the "voice", Ii hear you.
Lou

Inside of me
There is a confrontation going on
Between the voices of the present
And the voices of the pass
There is also a struggle
Between the goodness of some people
And the abusive actions of some others

I'm hearing you all and I thank you so much for your caring! I'm really trying here!

Stay all safe dear ones!
Time0

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when you're having a hard time with the conflicting thoughts, let one thing stand out...YOU'RE CARED FOR SO MUCH!

kd

timeO,
You wrote,[...confrontation...voices...struggle...good of some...abusive... of... others...]
Is there a way for the struggle to end? I could offer you support if you would like, but could you tell me if:
A. you do not know how to Overcome the struggle
B. you are convinced that to Overcome the struggle is beyond your abilities
C. you would like someone else to end the struggle for you
D. you feel defeated by the abuse of others
E. you would like a remedy to be relieved of the effects from the abuse of others.
F. a combination of the above
G. none of the above
H. something else
Lou
F.

Thank you for saying these words to me dear heart!

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Time0

Dear Lou,

If I want someone else to end the struggle for me? You know, dear one, I have learned very young that I would have to survive on my own. I hardly ask for help and when I do I feel guilty for it. No, I don’t want anybody else to have the burden to end my struggle. I do appreciate the caring, kindness, guidance, wisdom that people is giving me in here and I do accept it with open arms because I know where I stand and it’s not in a good place. But the struggle inside of me remains mine because nobody else have live my life and what have hurt me or is hurting me right now might not hurt somebody else. All, in the end, will depend on the person itself. It will always be my choice at the end.

For the part of the abuse? I try so hard to see the goodness in people before anything else. I give chances after chances to some. I try so hard to find a reason for this kind of behavior. I try so hard to understand. I try and I try. I have a strong willpower. I get so sad sometime because I know deep down these persons are not happy. (I am talking about my abuse not anybody else abuse. I am not here to judge anyone for who I am to judge anyone).

This struggle is always inside me. It just sometime it comes out really strong taking over my whole mind and heart. My only defense against this struggle is to block it and it is not always easy to do. But I know this is my way out. Until I can do that I need the goodness of the people in here because I don’t have any in my life. I need to know there is goodness in this world.

Thank you dear one for you’re caring! I appreciate it!

Time0

TimeO,
Thank you for your kind reply.
Perhaps we could have dialog more about the struggle that you write about. You see, it could be that another could end the struggle and that it would not be a burden for them to do so. They may be rewarded for their help.
You wrote that you thought that I cared for you and what you have written here. I do care for you and that is why I am here.
I can offer you support from my perspective if you would like and I ask for clarification so that others can give me a clue as to what it is that they would like to have dialog about so that the potential to open a door could happen.
Thank you again for your acceptance of my offer for support.
Lou

this has realiy helped me time0, you may feel like your being selfish, but by sharin your feelins you have helped me fit anouther piece to the puzzle. so keep sharin em man im sure you are helpin many others too

Thank you!

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Time0