[SueFL]

How's that? I join a support forum and can't even find the words to explain. This morning I am unable to smile, barely able to talk. I'm trying to shake it off, but I can't.

And with yet another pay cut and no insurance I fall in that place where I can't get to a doctor. I make too much for Medicaid, too little for anything else.

I'm also going blind from cataracts I can't get treated, but they don't qualify yet for emergency Medicaid.

Life has just gotten harder, and I'm beginning to hope the Doomsayers are right about 2012.

Well, I just wrote. And now I can write no more.

Hello, SueFL. Perhaps NAMI can help you: http://www.nami.org/template.cfm?sec...our_local_nami

[online user]

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time of things right now. Hope you can find something nice to do for yourself to comfort you--eat a piece of cake, snuggle in bed with a pet and a warm comforter, or go outside and breathe some fresh, clean air and listen to nature's sounds.

[AvidReader]

Hi SueFL -- It's good that you are trying to "shake it off" and that you came here. I know there are days when it is nearly impossible to do that, and I have often ended up in bed, sleeping because I can't deal with the pain of being conscious. So kudos to you for reaching out!

I hope you start feeling better soon.

[SueFL]

Originally Posted by online user

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time of things right now. Hope you can find something nice to do for yourself to comfort you--eat a piece of cake, snuggle in bed with a pet and a warm comforter, or go outside and breathe some fresh, clean air and listen to nature's sounds.

Very sweet thoughts. Thank you. I'm diabetic so must skip the cake, must stay out of bed because if I don't work 7 days a week I go under, and going outside...well, a med I'm on makes me burn in less than ten minutes. (I'm in FL after all.)

This sounds like the start of a bad comedy routine. Sorry. The general idea is a good one. I usually take care of myself by staying busy. It's the days when I can't stay busy that worry me. Thanks so much for the hugs.

[vertebrae]

SueFL ...

Sorry to hear about your current struggles with your health in addition to your financial / medical conundrum.

Is there any local organization which may be able to assist you in receiving treatment for your eyes? I'm not sure as to how old you may or may not be, but I would think that if you are in the 50+ category, there *should* be some type of service available to assist people that fall within that age range. Possibly a local community center / faith-based endorsed group (via a house of worship) / or welfare assistance program.

Also, are you currently taking any medications to help relive some of your depressive symptoms? Or if you are, and the cost is either prohibitive or bearing a heavy burden upon your monthly finances, then there are what is known as "Patient Assistance Programs" (a.k.a. "P.A.P." that are underwritten by the pharmaceutical companies themselves.

Here is a website link for RxAssist which allows the user to type in any drug name and verify if the company responsible for producing it has a P.A.P. program available to make it available either at low or no cost to the patient:

http://www.rxassist.org/patients/default.cfm


Also, in concluding here, disregard what the doomsayers are saying about the so called 2012 Mayan calendar "prophecies" as they are nothing more than another false bit of hype dreamt up by the New Age movement. Remember all the doom and gloom that was forcasted to occur back in the 1999 lead up to 2000? The whole Y2K business? People stockpiling food, weapons, water, converting their currency to gold coinage, etc.

Not gonna happen. Just fabrication and hype.

From the Wikipedia entry on the "2012 Phenomenon":

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2012_phenomenon


"A New Age interpretation of this transition posits that during this time Earth and its inhabitants may undergo a positive physical or spiritual transformation, and that 2012 may mark the beginning of a new era.end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibiru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum."



"Others suggest that the 2012 date marks the end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibiru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum."



"Scholars from various disciplines have dismissed the idea of catastrophe in 2012. Mainstream Mayanist scholars state that predictions of impending doom are not found in any of the existing classic Maya accounts, and that the idea that the Long Count calendar "ends" in 2012 misrepresents Maya history. The modern Maya do not consider the date significant, and the classical sources on the subject are scarce and contradictory, suggesting that there was little if any universal agreement among them about what, if anything, the date might mean."



"Additionally, astronomers and other scientists have rejected the apocalyptic forecasts as pseudoscience, stating that the anticipated events are contradicted by simple astronomical observations. NASA has compared fears about 2012 with those about the approaching millennium in the late 1990s, suggesting that an adequate analysis should preclude fears of disaster. None of the proposed alignments or formulas have been accepted by mainstream scholarship."




Take care and be well,


vertebrae

[SueFL]

Thanks for all your advice I don't believe in the 2012 stuff, just occasionally find myself wishing it were so. Yesterday was one of those days.

All the antidepressants raise the blood sugar level, my constant bugaboo. So while on the one hand I have to do without them, on the other I've been diabetic for six years and have not lost any nerve sensation or developed any retinopathy. It's a trade-off I have to make, very important to me because I watched my Dad's decline from diabetes. He wasn't willing to sacrifice anything, not even a doughnut.

I appreciate all the time and concern evidenced in your note.

Sorry to hear about your current struggles with your health in addition to your financial / medical conundrum.

Is there any local organization which may be able to assist you in receiving treatment for your eyes? I'm not sure as to how old you may or may not be, but I would think that if you are in the 50+ category, there *should* be some type of service available to assist people that fall within that age range. Possibly a local community center / faith-based endorsed group (via a house of worship) / or welfare assistance program.

Also, are you currently taking any medications to help relive some of your depressive symptoms? Or if you are, and the cost is either prohibitive or bearing a heavy burden upon your monthly finances, then there are what is known as "Patient Assistance Programs" (a.k.a. "P.A.P." that are underwritten by the pharmaceutical companies themselves.

Here is a website link for RxAssist which allows the user to type in any drug name and verify if the company responsible for producing it has a P.A.P. program available to make it available either at low or no cost to the patient:

Also, in concluding here, disregard what the doomsayers are saying about the so called 2012 Mayan calendar "prophecies" as they are nothing more than another false bit of hype dreamt up by the New Age movement. Remember all the doom and gloom that was forcasted to occur back in the 1999 lead up to 2000? The whole Y2K business? People stockpiling food, weapons, water, converting their currency to gold coinage, etc.

Not gonna happen. Just fabrication and hype.

From the Wikipedia entry on the "2012 Phenomenon":

"A New Age interpretation of this transition posits that during this time Earth and its inhabitants may undergo a positive physical or spiritual transformation, and that 2012 may mark the beginning of a new era.end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibiru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum."


"Others suggest that the 2012 date marks the end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibiru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum."


"Scholars from various disciplines have dismissed the idea of catastrophe in 2012. Mainstream Mayanist scholars state that predictions of impending doom are not found in any of the existing classic Maya accounts, and that the idea that the Long Count calendar "ends" in 2012 misrepresents Maya history. The modern Maya do not consider the date significant, and the classical sources on the subject are scarce and contradictory, suggesting that there was little if any universal agreement among them about what, if anything, the date might mean."



"Additionally, astronomers and other scientists have rejected the apocalyptic forecasts as pseudoscience, stating that the anticipated events are contradicted by simple astronomical observations. NASA has compared fears about 2012 with those about the approaching millennium in the late 1990s, suggesting that an adequate analysis should preclude fears of disaster. None of the proposed alignments or formulas have been accepted by mainstream scholarship."



Take care and be well,

vertebrae



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[online user]

Sorry my suggestions weren't up your alley...sounds like your idea of comforting might be cleaning out the refrigerator or organizing a collection, LOL...so many of us probably wish we could be "busy" and productive when we're depressed. Hope today is going better for you! More hugs coming, anyway!

[jennaorgana]

pm if you anything, i will be around. i hope you are feeling better, but if not i will be here

[Maria38Divine]

Hi SueFL, sorry to hear about all the challenges you're facing. You are obviously a hard worker and I wish there were more benefits for you. But while you continue to search for additional support to meet your medical needs, please squeeze a little "me time" into your days. You're worth it! And it may help uplift your mood a little. You may not be able to enjoy some activities, but there must be something you can do for you -soothing music (country, jazz, alternative, classical, oldoes but goodies), scented candles, bellydancing, yoga, writing. (Hope I'm giving you even 1 idea).

Lots of hugs and I trust you'll get the support you need soon.

[SueFL]

Originally Posted by online user

Sorry my suggestions weren't up your alley...sounds like your idea of comforting might be cleaning out the refrigerator or organizing a collection, LOL...so many of us probably wish we could be "busy" and productive when we're depressed. Hope today is going better for you! More hugs coming, anyway!

Ah, you know, keeping busy is how I stave it off. Once I'm in it... well, keeping busy becomes almost impossible as I'm sure you know.

I write for a living. Imagine how I felt when I posted the first note in this thread and it took an hour to get those few words out.

I'm back to being busy, a good sign. Thank you so much!

[puddles120710]

Good Morning. I can relate to your situation so much that when I read it I began crying all over again. Two years ago I lost my long time job and subsequently everything else since then. I have no insurance, money, or resources to get any kind of assistance through the state. The reason - my Master's degree. I have a lung disease which is rare and deadly. 15% of the people that get it die in the first episode with an addition 20% before they liv one year after diagnosis. June 2 will be two years for me. However, I do not have the money for medical treatment. Wonderful.

I remember my reaction the first time I had heard the world was going to end. I am going to date myself here- it was in the 1980s. I was so scared and worried because I had not had a chance to experience life and wanted to live. Yesterday was so bad for me that I was hoping that the doomsdayers were right this time. Oh well. Today is another day.

Hopefully there wil be a light at the end of this tunnel (and it will be a short tunnel).

[puddles120710]

Originally Posted by vertebrae

SueFL ...

Sorry to hear about your current struggles with your health in addition to your financial / medical conundrum.

Is there any local organization which may be able to assist you in receiving treatment for your eyes? I'm not sure as to how old you may or may not be, but I would think that if you are in the 50+ category, there *should* be some type of service available to assist people that fall within that age range. Possibly a local community center / faith-based endorsed group (via a house of worship) / or welfare assistance program.

Also, are you currently taking any medications to help relive some of your depressive symptoms? Or if you are, and the cost is either prohibitive or bearing a heavy burden upon your monthly finances, then there are what is known as "Patient Assistance Programs" (a.k.a. "P.A.P." that are underwritten by the pharmaceutical companies themselves.

Here is a website link for RxAssist which allows the user to type in any drug name and verify if the company responsible for producing it has a P.A.P. program available to make it available either at low or no cost to the patient:

http://www.rxassist.org/patients/default.cfm


Also, in concluding here, disregard what the doomsayers are saying about the so called 2012 Mayan calendar "prophecies" as they are nothing more than another false bit of hype dreamt up by the New Age movement. Remember all the doom and gloom that was forcasted to occur back in the 1999 lead up to 2000? The whole Y2K business? People stockpiling food, weapons, water, converting their currency to gold coinage, etc.

Not gonna happen. Just fabrication and hype.

From the Wikipedia entry on the "2012 Phenomenon":

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2012_phenomenon

"A New Age interpretation of this transition posits that during this time Earth and its inhabitants may undergo a positive physical or spiritual transformation, and that 2012 may mark the beginning of a new era.end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibiru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum."


"Others suggest that the 2012 date marks the end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibiru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum."


"Scholars from various disciplines have dismissed the idea of catastrophe in 2012. Mainstream Mayanist scholars state that predictions of impending doom are not found in any of the existing classic Maya accounts, and that the idea that the Long Count calendar "ends" in 2012 misrepresents Maya history. The modern Maya do not consider the date significant, and the classical sources on the subject are scarce and contradictory, suggesting that there was little if any universal agreement among them about what, if anything, the date might mean."



"Additionally, astronomers and other scientists have rejected the apocalyptic forecasts as pseudoscience, stating that the anticipated events are contradicted by simple astronomical observations. NASA has compared fears about 2012 with those about the approaching millennium in the late 1990s, suggesting that an adequate analysis should preclude fears of disaster. None of the proposed alignments or formulas have been accepted by mainstream scholarship."



Take care and be well,

vertebrae

Thank-you for the link for pharmacutical aide. I needed it as well. I am in the same predicament. I have contacted all the resources that I knew about but found no help. I will give this organization a try as well. THANK-YOU again.