i am a WHINY GROUCH.

I have a low threshold for everything, so this will probably sound whiny and I'm sorry about that.

I made a list of the stuff I need to get done before the end of the semester, and I have no idea where I'm going to find the energy to do all of it. I don't have any momentum right now. It takes me forever to get started and then I can't concentrate and besides, half of my projects require me to deal with other people. All I want to do is hide in a hole and you expect me to do a group project? Or stand in front of forty people and talk for fifteen minutes? Sometimes I think they wouldn't have let me into this school if they had known how much of a socially-awkward silent introvert I am.

I know I'm smart enough to do this, or at least I hope I'm smart enough to do this. But I wish it didn't look so impossible from here. And it's just second nature for everyone else...so what's my problem?

I feel like I'm just biding my time until my first counseling appointment next week. I know it won't get better right away, though. Last year it got worse for a while and I didn't know how to communicate that and I thought it might never stop getting worse. I don't think I even care whether that happens again. Just as long as I can stop feeling invisible.

Okay. I'm done. *very sad song played on the world's smallest violin*

it's ok for a worm to "whine" sometimes ....

Peaceful thoughts,
Fuzzy

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TGC

(((worms)))
Hope your first session with the T goes well.
I know you feel grouchy right now...but even Oscar was cute!

(((((((((((((((Quality)))))))))))))))))

How are you doing? I hope you are doing better!

time0

Good luck Q-W...

It is perfectly OK to vent and to whine here.

With regards to your workload... don't look at the whole picture. It will look like a big mountain, and then depression won't even let you get started.

Instead just take it one small task at a time.

(((((fuzzy, dottie, sj, time0)))))

heh, now I'm trying to imagine a whining worm. I wonder what that would sound like.

I still can't concentrate, but I feel less worried about it. I'm not sure whether that's good or bad -- being calm about things is pretty much the same as being less motivated, and I'm already behind in terms of schoolwork. Still don't want to do anything but go to sleep, which I know would be a bad idea. Okay. off to try some more.

eep, thanks dexter. I didn't see your comment. I'm trying to do one thing at a time, but I think I'm missing the forest for the trees.

there are so many things where I go to one extreme to avoid the other. Even though I know there's a middle ground, I don't know how to find it.

I just spent a good three hours working on something that should have taken me maybe half an hour. And just to put the icing on the cake, it was due on Monday. There are other people who are supposed to be working on this project, but they don't spontaneously contribute anything and I don't know how to get them to be more involved. And I can't think. And I don't think the professor will have any sympathy for this situation. *kicks brain*

Hi there Q-W--
So sorry to hear that you have had some rough times recently. Things will get easier with time and patience. In the meantime, though, my suggestion to you would be to talk to an academic and/or personal counselor about your situation. Maybe they will have some ideas to better deal with the pressure that you are feeling. Hang in there. Good luck.
LOTS of hugs and cheers, Lauren
P.S.-- You can PM me or email me if you need anything

thanks, Lauren. I have an appointment with a counselor on Thursday. *worries* Meanwhile, I'm just hanging around here being jittery.

Hey there,QW--
Good luck with your appointment on Thursday. Hope all goes well. Keep me posted on how it went.
Talk to ya later, Lauren

Hope things go well with your counselor. I remember being apprehensive about my first appointment, but it turned out to excellent and I soon felt able to pour out all the bad stuff that had been festering inside me for years.