[skyscraper]

I've lost all my hope and motivation. I'm ready to give up. I don't care if I crash and burn. Maybe that's what I need? Who knows? I'm just done :|

[porcupine2]

I'm so so tired. Even feeding the cats was a chore. Pouring a cup of coffee sends a shooting pain up my arm. Let the pity party begin.....I feel everyone needs to do that once in a while.

Just want to sleep forever.

[bagged5pt7]

well its almost 12 pm....just woke up...im laying in bed thinking what is there to do today and well...i think i might go back to sleep =[

[Aardwolf]

Llike literally nothing is even worth thinking about, let along doing it.

[skyscraper]

I need a diagnosis

[SadNJNY]

I'm completely irrelevant.

[Open Eyes]

(((((SadNY)))))
Your not irrelevant, truely you are a good person, just lost.
Open Eyes

[alwaysrejoice]

I never had mood swings like I do lately.

[hahalebou]

I am absolutely speechless.

[Nemo39122]

Step 1: end up talking to random awesome girl at a store about music.
Step 2: realize random girl is hot.
Step 3: continue to hate self for even liking girls.

[DespondentDaisy]

thinking about where I wish I was in my life (trying not to think of all the mistakes I've made along the way), and hoping perhaps I'll get there one day.

[DespondentDaisy]

Originally Posted by gulas

Heard this song by Gerry Rafferty on the radio this am:

"He's got this dream about buying some land, he's gonna
Give up the booze and the one night stands
And then he'll settle down, in some quiet little town
And forget about everything.

But you know he'll always keep moving
You know he's never gonna stop moving
'Cause he's rolling, he's the rolling stone."

I just wonder if this is how I'm going to end up when it's all said
and done. After all the effort I make to find some equilibrium, will it
just come to naught?

I've never believed in fate but at odd times, it feels like I will end up
like this, regardless of how hard I fight the slide toward oblivion.

I heard that song recently on the radio too, it really spoke to me too- it was sort of relaxing, made me want to just start anew somewhere . . .

[DespondentDaisy]

Originally Posted by porcupine2

I am very blessed that I have support from my friends, as my family is always in denial. "Snap out of it!" is what I hear from them. My friends on the other hand, are always rooting for me.

damn, I wish I had friends

[porcupine2]

Originally Posted by DespondentDaisy

damn, I wish I had friends

Guess what? Now you're stuck with me!

[Chatnoir]

I keep wondering if this is what life is supposed to be and if I am just too weak to handle what everyone else does.

[AniManiac]

I don't know why I'm crying. I think I'm grieving for my lost healthy self.

[afterrain]

Why does it hurt so bad to get over him?

[alwaysrejoice]

Originally Posted by AniManiac

I don't know why I'm crying. I think I'm grieving for my lost healthy self.

I feel like that too. I know the past me was so awesome.

[TerryL]

Originally Posted by afterrain

Why does it hurt so bad to get over him?

It's never easy to not have your affections returned. However, I have learned over the years that I can't force someone to feel something they don't feel. I hope one day you will meet that someone who loves you back.

[choocha]

I hope my 1st guinea pig will accept and love the 2nd guinea pig I got her as a friend, or that was a big fat waste of time and $10.

[porcupine2]

I am really tired of having to do the legwork on all my medical related issues - appointments, referrals, records......why the heck is it my responsibility? It's ridiculous - I've been waiting 3 weeks just for someone to set up an appointment. My blood pressure is rising just typing this.

[Chatnoir]

Is this my fault, do I somehow deserve it, am I just not trying hard enough to become well?

[alwaysrejoice]

Will I go back to work or be disabled forever? I have been off two months now.

[Nemo39122]

I'm tired of having to dig through lies to find out the truth about my own life.

I need to know the real story.